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hello live journal i need you more than ever. ok guys this one might just be the longest one yet. so bear with me. is my spelling sucks its totaly not my fault. OK. so yesterday heather came and pciked me up and we went to the church so stay for a little while (let time pass) then we went to mc donalds and i got panackaes. yum. then we went to tim hortons and just sorta sat around... waiting for more time to pass so we could go to brices. we got over there and they wanted a ride to the mall. thennnnn after we gave them a ride we were off to southland. we drove about 30 minuets down telegraph out of our way looking for euricka. were such tards. after we found it we then turend the wrong way down it. again tards. we finally found the mall.... and we walked around and didnt really do much shopping... lol.. so we left and then we went to wallmart. fun stuff. then she took me home. then i went to kellys house for uhh oh yeah like a bible study thing. then... today we were suppose to go shopping with jake so this morning i dyed my hair and was getting ready only to then find out jake had slept in a had to go to some christmas party thing. talk about being bumed. he promised to take us tomorrow after church. sooo thats what im looking forward too. anyways. i went to meijer today to meet up with kelly and then we went to the mall... not a lot of shopping went on on my side. so we then went to their house where everyone came over for cell group/mikes birthday party. and guess who broke down and cried AGAIN over brice.... i just needed to talk to someone so david was pretty help full with that.... jake came over and everything seemed better.... did i mention that jake is like 19? obber gorgerous but way to old for me haha. so anyways. we go bowling tonight and amanda and chris and elizabeth and brice show up. and they all bombard me with presents. i got oodles and oodles of underwear! a pretty pretty pony and coooool nail polish and a cool hat!. i was so excited. and i didnt thik brice was going to stay... but he did him and chris. ok blah blah blah to make a long story short jake left with kelly and amanda... (who invited herslef). so i went back to talk to brice and chris and brice showed me this picture of some half nakid chick on his cell phone... i was soooo upset :( so i started crying... and he kept asking what was wrong.. and i eventually asked if i could talk to him and we talked and it was nice and we hugged and it was really nice because he was liek rubbing my back and then bill took me home and me and brice held hands and IM SO FREAKING CONFUSED. so i go home and he sends me this.

brice text message: "i dont get it... when im with you i wanna be the one to hold you, but once im not with you, i feel that im glad were not together oh yeah ...and sorry about the picture on my phone i dont know what i was thinking. sorry.

AHHHHHHHHH WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO DO? my dad just told me he forbids me to go back out with him which is a load of shit. AHHHHHHH