It's been a while...
A lot has happened and i haven't really had the time to really sit down and type everything...I feel like this may turn out to be a novel or some sort but I'll try to shorten it down.
I've been really debating with myself for a while if I should leave Jen or have her back in my life as a friend, it was just weird...I felt like I couldn't move on as long as she's there and I needed a 2nd opinion so I asked Nou about what should I do and she sorta pat me on the shoulder and gave me a hug and told me that I already knew the answer to that...which was true because no matter how much people hurt me, I will never abandon them and they're always welcome to be a part of my life...So I've been talking to Jen a few days now again and I just don't understand what she's trying to tell me...she tells me that she likes him but that I shouldn't count myself out of the game yet? What are you talking about? Well I told her it better work out because if it doesn't that'll be just too sad, she cut me down after all these years for him ;/and I really don't want to set myself up again just to get hurt again because of her...
On a side note, I was really busy last friday running around, setting up and making sure everything went good for the Native American Cultural demonstration at our college to commemorate when Reagen signed this paper saying that Natives have contribute a whole lot to the US. It turned up really good but I notice that I wasn't accepted as a native *lol* as strange as that may sound but there's a story to it ;p I was telling Lizzle about it and I told her that the main reason why I'm always so interested in cultural studies and religion is that I always felt like I didn't belong anywhere so I was looking for a place to belong to I was too white to be Asian, To Asian to be white, to different to be anything or to belong anywhere so I was sad at that *lol* The thing that made me felt unappreciated and unaccepted that day was that they were giving out scholarships for Natives and I wasn't eligible for one because I'm not native *LOL* even though I do Sooooooo much for the club ;/ I don't care about the scholarship just the thought of it you know...Now now, I'm not saying all natives are bad mind you, if It comes out that way sorry I didn't intend to. Anyways Lizzle told me that she always felt the same way so we created our own religion, our Jesus is all Glam-Out *lmfao* so that was fun.
Ah heres a pic of Lizzle:
This pic is old as dirt but it's the only one I have of all of us ;p
*lmfao* That's us at Chuck E Cheese for my friend's Jeremy Birthday ;p Top Left is Debbie(she's Liz's Mom) bottom left is Jeremy, Bottom Right Is Liz and Top Right is Me *lmfao*
I just love this picture because She's not a Phil Collins Fan *lmfao* as you can tell
What's not to like about Phil?! xD he was even in GTA: Vice City Stories *rofl*
*lol* You can probably tell that I totally adore that woman ^^ she's really the only one that holding me together and I love her ;D
On Happier notes *lol* before this post gets Too Depressing... My friend's friend moved back to Fres a few days ago and he told me he wanted to do something special for them because they've been through a lot and they haven't had the time nor money to go out and stuff so my friend wanted to throw them a date or something and he asked me if I could play maybe a few songs which I agree because for love's sake of course *lol* gotta live up to my band's name of "Eros Light" Love's Light ^^ it was so awesome, and so sweet ;D I did a cover of "All I Want Is You" from U2, and I couldn't help but choke up a bit because you can tell that they were so in love with each other despite all the shit that was happening to them ;D it just reminds me of the time when my friend told me that he was jealous of me because I can play instruments, that I traveled a lot and a lot of other stuff and I told him that he got it all wrong, that it was I that was always jealous of everyone, I travel because I want to find a place where I belong, I was jealous that they found their place and someone to share their life with while I haven't yet, and I just feel like I'm running out of time. I really would trade it all in an instant to to find someone to share my life with in an instant ^^
Oh and I'm so excited!!! I get to open for her this Friday At this club! I hope all my friends could make it to see me ^^
Haha I think this entry had gone on for WAAAAAAYYY too long so I'll go away, I left out a lot of stuff but I'll type them up some other time ^^ I hope you all have a wonderful day
You say you want diamonds on a ring of gold
You say you want your story to remain untold
But all the promises we make
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you
You say you'll give me a highway with no one on it
Treasure, just to look upon it
All the riches in the night
You say you'll give me eyes in a moon of blindness
A river in a time of dryness
A harbour in the tempest
But all the promises we make
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you
You say you want your love to work out right
To last with me through the night
You say you want diamonds on a ring of gold
Your story to remain untold
Your love not to grow cold
All the promises we break
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you
You
All I want is you
All I want is you
All I want is you
I've been really debating with myself for a while if I should leave Jen or have her back in my life as a friend, it was just weird...I felt like I couldn't move on as long as she's there and I needed a 2nd opinion so I asked Nou about what should I do and she sorta pat me on the shoulder and gave me a hug and told me that I already knew the answer to that...which was true because no matter how much people hurt me, I will never abandon them and they're always welcome to be a part of my life...So I've been talking to Jen a few days now again and I just don't understand what she's trying to tell me...she tells me that she likes him but that I shouldn't count myself out of the game yet? What are you talking about? Well I told her it better work out because if it doesn't that'll be just too sad, she cut me down after all these years for him ;/and I really don't want to set myself up again just to get hurt again because of her...
On a side note, I was really busy last friday running around, setting up and making sure everything went good for the Native American Cultural demonstration at our college to commemorate when Reagen signed this paper saying that Natives have contribute a whole lot to the US. It turned up really good but I notice that I wasn't accepted as a native *lol* as strange as that may sound but there's a story to it ;p I was telling Lizzle about it and I told her that the main reason why I'm always so interested in cultural studies and religion is that I always felt like I didn't belong anywhere so I was looking for a place to belong to I was too white to be Asian, To Asian to be white, to different to be anything or to belong anywhere so I was sad at that *lol* The thing that made me felt unappreciated and unaccepted that day was that they were giving out scholarships for Natives and I wasn't eligible for one because I'm not native *LOL* even though I do Sooooooo much for the club ;/ I don't care about the scholarship just the thought of it you know...Now now, I'm not saying all natives are bad mind you, if It comes out that way sorry I didn't intend to. Anyways Lizzle told me that she always felt the same way so we created our own religion, our Jesus is all Glam-Out *lmfao* so that was fun.
Ah heres a pic of Lizzle:
This pic is old as dirt but it's the only one I have of all of us ;p
*lmfao* That's us at Chuck E Cheese for my friend's Jeremy Birthday ;p Top Left is Debbie(she's Liz's Mom) bottom left is Jeremy, Bottom Right Is Liz and Top Right is Me *lmfao*
I just love this picture because She's not a Phil Collins Fan *lmfao* as you can tell
What's not to like about Phil?! xD he was even in GTA: Vice City Stories *rofl*
Click to view*lol* You can probably tell that I totally adore that woman ^^ she's really the only one that holding me together and I love her ;D
On Happier notes *lol* before this post gets Too Depressing... My friend's friend moved back to Fres a few days ago and he told me he wanted to do something special for them because they've been through a lot and they haven't had the time nor money to go out and stuff so my friend wanted to throw them a date or something and he asked me if I could play maybe a few songs which I agree because for love's sake of course *lol* gotta live up to my band's name of "Eros Light" Love's Light ^^ it was so awesome, and so sweet ;D I did a cover of "All I Want Is You" from U2, and I couldn't help but choke up a bit because you can tell that they were so in love with each other despite all the shit that was happening to them ;D it just reminds me of the time when my friend told me that he was jealous of me because I can play instruments, that I traveled a lot and a lot of other stuff and I told him that he got it all wrong, that it was I that was always jealous of everyone, I travel because I want to find a place where I belong, I was jealous that they found their place and someone to share their life with while I haven't yet, and I just feel like I'm running out of time. I really would trade it all in an instant to to find someone to share my life with in an instant ^^
Oh and I'm so excited!!! I get to open for her this Friday At this club! I hope all my friends could make it to see me ^^
Haha I think this entry had gone on for WAAAAAAYYY too long so I'll go away, I left out a lot of stuff but I'll type them up some other time ^^ I hope you all have a wonderful day
You say you want diamonds on a ring of gold
You say you want your story to remain untold
But all the promises we make
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you
You say you'll give me a highway with no one on it
Treasure, just to look upon it
All the riches in the night
You say you'll give me eyes in a moon of blindness
A river in a time of dryness
A harbour in the tempest
But all the promises we make
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you
You say you want your love to work out right
To last with me through the night
You say you want diamonds on a ring of gold
Your story to remain untold
Your love not to grow cold
All the promises we break
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you
You
All I want is you
All I want is you
All I want is you