well...

[space_gerbil]

It's been a while. I didn't really feel like writing in my journal because my thoughts are pretty depressing. It's just so tough to try and be happy when you know that the person you want to be with has given up on being with you.

I remember when I used to feel like I had goals. Now it seems like my only goal is to try and be nice to everyone when it feels like my world is falling apart. It really sucks because I got more hours so I could save money and now I have like...none left because I've been helping my dad out. I dont know...I havent even been able to write anything for the longest time...I've tried too...believe me I've tried.

I just cant get Mike off of my mind. Every where I go I think of something he said or something he did when we were in that place or I remember talking to him about a place. It sucks because I used to be so good at moving on and forgetting about the stuff that hurt me and now I just keep dwelling on it. I keep seeing his face and hearing his voice....I feel like im going to go insane. and he made me promise to leave him alone for a while because when we're around each other we end up kissing.