Some honesty.
I always feel compelled to censor my entries in order to make myself seem like a well-adjusted person, truth is I'm not that well adjusted, and I have emo days, too. So I'm going to try to be frank.
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We’re stuck here and time doesn’t stop, and it doesn’t slow down.
You have 0 control over it, and that freaks me out.
I'm afraid of getting out of bed in the morning.
If I stay in bed nothing can possibly happen, the possibilities are that there are no possibilities at all, only the acceptance of the defeat that comes with every day, no matter what you do.
I'm afraid of body language and of what is going on behind the faces.
I can't read it worth shit.
Somebody told me that's 80% of human interaction.
Where does that leave me?
Maybe that explains why I’m so darned awkward.
People tell me I look self-assured and strong and nonchalant but the truth is I have no idea how to move or talk around strangers, and I feel uncomfortable when people look at me unless I'm speaking to them.
Sometimes people tell me that this comes off as cold.
I often wonder if I deserve the good things that come into my life.
I wonder if I'm worth the love my friends and family show me, and I find myself distancing myself from everybody around me for this reason.
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We’re stuck here and time doesn’t stop, and it doesn’t slow down.
You have 0 control over it, and that freaks me out.
I'm afraid of getting out of bed in the morning.
If I stay in bed nothing can possibly happen, the possibilities are that there are no possibilities at all, only the acceptance of the defeat that comes with every day, no matter what you do.
I'm afraid of body language and of what is going on behind the faces.
I can't read it worth shit.
Somebody told me that's 80% of human interaction.
Where does that leave me?
Maybe that explains why I’m so darned awkward.
People tell me I look self-assured and strong and nonchalant but the truth is I have no idea how to move or talk around strangers, and I feel uncomfortable when people look at me unless I'm speaking to them.
Sometimes people tell me that this comes off as cold.
I often wonder if I deserve the good things that come into my life.
I wonder if I'm worth the love my friends and family show me, and I find myself distancing myself from everybody around me for this reason.