"I'm Sorry," the final chapter of the SS
I didn't know what to do about Sabrinia. I didn't feel right leaving it where it was but didn't know what to do. When I don't know what to do I just try to be as honest as possible. Yeah, I have no future in politics but maybe with Sabs? So I sent her the last few months of this blog late on Thursday.
She responded back that she wanted to talk about things, just the two of us. But first we had to go out with Mike and Kurt to the Star Trek Experience. Umm. I'm the only one who can recognize an Andorian when I see one. So that's not quite the appropriate environment for what needed to be said - Romulan spies everywhere.
Today we got together for lunch though. The Sabrinia Situation is what I thought it was. She wants me to be her friend and I want more. We both apologized for a few things and tried to enjoy the meal. I knew where it was heading but waited until the check was paid to get there.
I'm sorry...
I want to be your friend...
But I can't sleep...
I like hanging out with you...
But I can't...
I'm sorry...
Can you do me one favor?
Take care of yourself, ok...
'Bye.
The words came out slow, half-whispered half-cried. Tears didn't stream down my face but I dabbed the edge of my eyes with the napkin I kept twisting in front of me. I mostly kept my eyes on that mangled napkin. Every ellipsis there starts when I looked at Sabrinia...
It would be fair to say that I'm less than thrilled about the conclusion of the Sabrinia Situation. I thought maybe part of my life could be more comedy than tragedy but I guess not. It sucks but...
I wish Sabrinia felt the same way about me that I do about her. But she doesn't. I can't hate her for that. I'm not some egomaniac who thinks anyone who doesn't want him is insane. And in a lot of ways Sabs and I aren't the most compatible couple ever; she's probably showing good judgment by not getting involved with me.
It just sucks that this is the first time I let myself fall for someone and went after her with my maladroit best and what do I get out it? I loose someone who could have been a great friend.
Son of a Goddamn Bitch!
A strange thing happened on my way away from Sabrinia. Walking back to my car a lady approached me. She looked like a homeless lady but according to the story she told she just needed a few bucks to get in touch with her sister. I gave her a few dollars. Whether she's lying or not, she needs it more than I do.
Then she asked me if I was ok. "Yeah, it's just - I like a girl who doesn't like me. Oldest story on earth." Then she gave me a hug. I went out with Sabrinia and got a hug from a homeless, middle-aged, black lady in the parking lot...
Have I mentioned I'm not good with girls? I did keep my hand over my wallet at the time though.
She responded back that she wanted to talk about things, just the two of us. But first we had to go out with Mike and Kurt to the Star Trek Experience. Umm. I'm the only one who can recognize an Andorian when I see one. So that's not quite the appropriate environment for what needed to be said - Romulan spies everywhere.
Today we got together for lunch though. The Sabrinia Situation is what I thought it was. She wants me to be her friend and I want more. We both apologized for a few things and tried to enjoy the meal. I knew where it was heading but waited until the check was paid to get there.
I'm sorry...
I want to be your friend...
But I can't sleep...
I like hanging out with you...
But I can't...
I'm sorry...
Can you do me one favor?
Take care of yourself, ok...
'Bye.
The words came out slow, half-whispered half-cried. Tears didn't stream down my face but I dabbed the edge of my eyes with the napkin I kept twisting in front of me. I mostly kept my eyes on that mangled napkin. Every ellipsis there starts when I looked at Sabrinia...
It would be fair to say that I'm less than thrilled about the conclusion of the Sabrinia Situation. I thought maybe part of my life could be more comedy than tragedy but I guess not. It sucks but...
I wish Sabrinia felt the same way about me that I do about her. But she doesn't. I can't hate her for that. I'm not some egomaniac who thinks anyone who doesn't want him is insane. And in a lot of ways Sabs and I aren't the most compatible couple ever; she's probably showing good judgment by not getting involved with me.
It just sucks that this is the first time I let myself fall for someone and went after her with my maladroit best and what do I get out it? I loose someone who could have been a great friend.
Son of a Goddamn Bitch!
A strange thing happened on my way away from Sabrinia. Walking back to my car a lady approached me. She looked like a homeless lady but according to the story she told she just needed a few bucks to get in touch with her sister. I gave her a few dollars. Whether she's lying or not, she needs it more than I do.
Then she asked me if I was ok. "Yeah, it's just - I like a girl who doesn't like me. Oldest story on earth." Then she gave me a hug. I went out with Sabrinia and got a hug from a homeless, middle-aged, black lady in the parking lot...
Have I mentioned I'm not good with girls? I did keep my hand over my wallet at the time though.