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Well... I haven't updated in a really long time. Not like anybody reads this thing anyway; and that statement leads to what I'm feeling right now. I hate people who take people for granted way too much, and those people expect the person to just take it like a bitch and keep being their friend. Well, I'm sorry but that isn't how it's going to be anymore. The person I'm talking about doesn't read this; in fact this statement will probably not be read by anyone but myself. But I have taken this treatment day-in and day-out since this said person and i became really good friends, especially since high school. Before, I had realized how this person had treated me like complete and utter shit before, but, like my dear mother, I took it lying down and still was his friend. And, not to mention the fact that I was in love with him pretty much from the first time I met him, and I even asked him to homecoming freshmen year, but no. I'm just amanda. amanda's cant be capable of feelings. amanda is just there so she can hear about said person's crushes, cool punk/emo friends, and death metal/punk/emo bands. And also, amanda doesnt care about person going out with so-called best friend and having wild passionate monkey sex on so-called best friend's top bunk while amanda is on the bottom is perfectly ok. Im not going to go on. If someone does read this entry (which I doubt very much) and happens to figure out who said person is (it shouldn't be too hard) please tell him to read this entry. To said person: (if this ever even gets back to him) I'm sorry if I sound like a bitch, but I've had enough; find another emotional dumpster.