Caught with my hand in the honey jar
It was around 1 o'clock Friday morning when I had to say goodbye to Zoe....it was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. We both knew this day was coming of course, but we did our very best to avoid it...just pretend like it wasn't there....so the whole thing seemed rather surreal until it just kind of hit....it's very sad to realize that you aren't going to see the one you love everyday. And not just for a day or two but, for three or four months you can not see them because they are gone...far away....on the other side of the country gone.
But it's a really good thing for her to be going to school at NYU. She will thrive there....it's an amazing opportunity and I'm very happy for her. The city, the school, everything there just fits her perfectly.
So Zoe now lives in New York City.....and I am, for the time being, stuck here...and I've never felt more stuck in my life....I don't want to be here, but I can't leave either....I feel trapped.
But I'm going to work my hardest at getting to NYC as soon as I can....so I can be with my baby. And due to recent events and rearrangement of my living situations, this may prove to be a more difficult task than it seems....but it doesn't matter...I am determined...and nothing is going to hold me back....because in the end it will all be worth it. But first I must straighten things out here.
In other news...I'm no longer living with Willy. I'm not exactly sure where I'm living right now...well, I have a couple of places....but maybe only temporarily? I dunno.....
Also need to make some more of that money stuff, so if anybody knows of a job opening...let me know
I guess that's about it....I feel too tired to write about anything else anyway....
oh and....Zoe, I love you and I miss you xoxoxo
But it's a really good thing for her to be going to school at NYU. She will thrive there....it's an amazing opportunity and I'm very happy for her. The city, the school, everything there just fits her perfectly.
So Zoe now lives in New York City.....and I am, for the time being, stuck here...and I've never felt more stuck in my life....I don't want to be here, but I can't leave either....I feel trapped.
But I'm going to work my hardest at getting to NYC as soon as I can....so I can be with my baby. And due to recent events and rearrangement of my living situations, this may prove to be a more difficult task than it seems....but it doesn't matter...I am determined...and nothing is going to hold me back....because in the end it will all be worth it. But first I must straighten things out here.
In other news...I'm no longer living with Willy. I'm not exactly sure where I'm living right now...well, I have a couple of places....but maybe only temporarily? I dunno.....
Also need to make some more of that money stuff, so if anybody knows of a job opening...let me know
I guess that's about it....I feel too tired to write about anything else anyway....
oh and....Zoe, I love you and I miss you xoxoxo