Fat, Inhaler, Pathetic , Guilty, and Stressed.
I am growing so FAT from all the stress that has been placed upon me. I look like the blubber whale out of Pinochio, and I feel like im going to bust at the seams any minute now.
I cant breathe when im stressing because I have a mild case of asthma, so in this case I need an INHALER.
I feel PATHETIC because I wont let my moms ex-boyfriend (Who shes madly in love over still, after theyve been broken up for over a month now.) come to my wedding, because she doesnt know how to respect my wishes about having a peaceful wedding, with my DAD there. Therefore this makes me feel GUILTY because my mom is hurt by this..
Indeed I did have a major stress attack today to where I couldnt breathe FOR LIKE FIVE MINUTES. Meh.
Work was horrible, theres this guy who is so slow.. and he doesnt get it.. he uses dishes I have cleaned for the next day.. and then he doesnt do any of his job.. hes just pathetic but I feel bad for him because I yell at him.
Geh... one of my customer said "Gahlee.." Cuz I kept yelling at him.. and I felt bad..
It was storming.. and I wanted to get home.. and there were tornadoes out..
My mom is totally just killing my happiness. She cant be happy for me, because she isnt happy her own self.. because she loves this big idiot who hurts her..
I saw my ex-boyfriend today, I kinda proudly waved my ring at him, and then felt guilty at that too, 'cuz he smiled and said Congratulations... after I have been deleting and editing journal entries all day to delete him from my past...
Am I really such a horrible person? I really am beginning to feel like I am.
I bought myself a book on stress today.. Maybe it will help.
-Pops her neck and watches the computer screen while the bottom IM's blink at her..-
Hmn. -Smiles. <3.
I cant breathe when im stressing because I have a mild case of asthma, so in this case I need an INHALER.
I feel PATHETIC because I wont let my moms ex-boyfriend (Who shes madly in love over still, after theyve been broken up for over a month now.) come to my wedding, because she doesnt know how to respect my wishes about having a peaceful wedding, with my DAD there. Therefore this makes me feel GUILTY because my mom is hurt by this..
Indeed I did have a major stress attack today to where I couldnt breathe FOR LIKE FIVE MINUTES. Meh.
Work was horrible, theres this guy who is so slow.. and he doesnt get it.. he uses dishes I have cleaned for the next day.. and then he doesnt do any of his job.. hes just pathetic but I feel bad for him because I yell at him.
Geh... one of my customer said "Gahlee.." Cuz I kept yelling at him.. and I felt bad..
It was storming.. and I wanted to get home.. and there were tornadoes out..
My mom is totally just killing my happiness. She cant be happy for me, because she isnt happy her own self.. because she loves this big idiot who hurts her..
I saw my ex-boyfriend today, I kinda proudly waved my ring at him, and then felt guilty at that too, 'cuz he smiled and said Congratulations... after I have been deleting and editing journal entries all day to delete him from my past...
Am I really such a horrible person? I really am beginning to feel like I am.
I bought myself a book on stress today.. Maybe it will help.
-Pops her neck and watches the computer screen while the bottom IM's blink at her..-
Hmn. -Smiles. <3.