May 27, 2008 14:30
Ok, this has been hanging over my head for a little while now, partially because I hate stuff like this and partially because I'm just too friggin' busy these days to hear myself think and I don't get nearly enough LJ time! *growls*
So, you might be asking why the hell when I'm not around that much I come in swinging an axe and cut a bunch of people. That is of course if you care in the first place. :P Honestly, a big part of it is what I already said. My f-list is too big too manage (and its not even that big for God's sake!) and there are people here I rarely talk to if ever or that I may have friended for fic once upon a time. Some have completely disappeared or we're not mutual friends anyway. But mostly, its because its too much, which is why I'm cutting some comms too.
You don't need a whole explanation, its true, but I also wanted to say there's one more reason I'm making a friends cut and its more personal. The past few months have been a major roller coaster for me. Really good things have been going on and really bad things have been going on too, as most of you know.
In the midst of all of this I have seen the best and the worst sides of fandom. Through fandom and LJ I have made some of the best friends and I couldn't have made it through all of this without you. Some of you I haven't even ever met and it doesn't matter! Y'all stick by me even when I'm not the most attentive LJ-er myself and you email and text and message just to check in on me and its great and I love you and I am SO thankful for you!
However, I have been burned by fandom as well recently and to be honest it kinda sucks. I just don't understand people sometimes and I'm actually beyond trying which is why I locked stuff again and kinda just disappeared for a bit. After Eyecon, some stuff happened and honestly I didn't even want to talk about that amazing experience anymore and that wasn't fair to me or anyone who was wanting to hear about it! I no longer wanted to post about it or anything, its my journal and I want to be able to talk about stuff! This is supposed to be a fun place and it stopped being that for a while but it will be again DAMMIT! lol So anyway, that's the other part of the cut. I just needed to reign it in a bit and get my LJ under control again!
One more side note that has nothing to do with the cut but that while I'm on my soapbox I thought I'd get off my chest because I don't do this well unless I'm on a roll! lol I know not all of you on my f-list get along with others on my f-list. I'm sure that happens on a lot of people's f-lists. All I can say is, live and let live. You don't have to talk to each other and if you're on my f-list its because you're important to me so it doesn't matter who else is on it! Got it? Good.
I want to make the cut disclaimer. This is not against anyone personally. If you think it is and I haven't pissed you off too much and ya wanna talk about it, the comments for this post are screened or feel free to message or email me
Oh! And consider this an amnesty for defriending me as well (especially after this post!! lol), not that you need one. You wanna cut me, I won't ask for an explanation - unless you wish to offer one of course.
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