bored with thought
So I'm in the midst of writing this book that in a way portrays who I am, and yet the character has it's own uniqueness that isn't relevant to me. Yet, once I feel that I've grasped the character, I realize that i haven't really grasped her at all. I mean I sit and think about who I am as a whole, and when I'm not whole, and in those circumstances what completes me, and how I see my life from the negative and positive perspectives, and why I've made the choices I have, etc. But I don't really know why. It's like once I feel I've grasped who I am and thrown it into the character, my character is never really full. There's always something missing. I don't know how to explain it really. I just felt like writing out my thoughts instead of locking them inside my head.