shut the window love...keep the world outside....I dont want to think about anyone...
okay so..this is a serious post..If you dont want to hear someone spilling there guts out..then stop reading right about here...I just feel like lately...I need help..no matter what is right in my life everything always feels wrong...no matter what I do its not good enough..its just never enough...I cant even focus on what needs to be done...I should be doing well in school so I can get through mid-terms and do well this year so I can graduate when Im suppose to and get the fuck over to Cali...I want Jess to come wiht me..it may sound stupid because most of you people judge everything about everybody when everyone else knows your really dumb little mindless pricks who want to have an opinion on everything so bad that they dont care if what they say is wrong just so long as stupid people THINK that you sound smart..yeah fuck all you faggots who think that your better than anyone cuz most of you...arnt...not even close..selfish assholes....but anyways..I mean Im honestly in love..i know love...I hate people who say that love doesnt come when your so young...i mean thats just like the dumbest shit I have ever heard..there is no age for love...Im mature enough to realize Im in love...I love you Jess and dont you ever forget that..yesterday was a full month...not counting on and off..but an actual full solid month<3...I miss Sam a lot lately though ... she knew how to say one word and just put a smile abck on my face no amtter what mood I was in..it sucks so bad that shes so far away...and Jess makes me so happy and I know I make her so happy but sometimes I just feel like I dont know what to do around her...but then on the otehr hand I just feel so comfortable around her...like she already knows everything about me so it doesnt matter what I do around her because she'll understand....I need a band..right now...I want a good guitarist...I want a good bassist...I want a good drummer and I want to sing..I want open minded musicians..I want friends that can sit around with me drink and smoke and just come up with ideas for songs...I want creativity to be the only element in the group that matters..I dont want any borders, I want to cross lines and just hav fun...I dont wanna just start a band and play shows...I want us to find ourselves and where we are at in music...so hey if your down hit me up because I am really serious about it and I have way too many songs written to go to waste..and its my last option..i want to make it happen...i want to one day be maing money...and if it doesnt start now...then im done..