Lonely Day
Ok so today was the first Drama Club meeting. It was really fun! All I realized there was that I am good at acting. Which got me thinking that they may be the only thing I am good at I am ok at singing but I don't feel so amazing doing it like when I am acting! Singing is like something that I am always second best at. In acting I don't know I just kind always find my place and love it! Here is my goal for tommorow I am not going to complain about anything at all! I really don't think my friends like me as much as I like them so I want to figure out why. Though a lot of it is Anthony's fault for giving me shit to complain about! But back to the friends like none of them got me birthday presents (except Laura, Alaina, Leann, and Becky). But I mean that usually never bothered me but now for some reason shits getting to me! Especially now that I am about to take money out of the bank to buy a present for someone I buy shit for all the time! I mean and in general my friends hardly say thank you either! Anyways I guess I can't help that I am giving and caring but some times I wish people appreciated it instead of taking it for granted! I really feel like people use me for my car, money and w/e! It's sad, I really wish I knew for sure that my friends where my friends! At least I am always a 100% sure about Alaina and Leann too bad I hardly hang with them! Ok well I am going to finish my lonely night alone!