She's A Rebal She's A Saint
Hey so I start school in 4 days and I am so excited! I probebly should be nervious because its a new school and all but that hasen't really hit me yet. Besides I have Shannon and Jesse. I will miss all of my north friends but I really think they will be just fine without me! I have been really good about not getting depressed lately although I really don't know what the secert is! I just stay home and say fuck everyone I feel like staying home! ( Yeah it's like that) I really wonder how people see me I was thinking about it from like my friends point of view and if I where them I would think I try way too hard to be nice and that I buy people! Ok both of those qualities kind of suck so note to self learn to be a better person not just act like one! My sister is moving in 2 days it's making me jealious I really want to go to collage now! I hope that I get into UCLA OR NYU or even MSU. Meaning I have to try this year and not use that I am too smart for this bull shit that just barely worked for me last year.Anyways I am hardly even thinking about Anthony or Bobby anymore unless i hear someone play guiter, see a mustang, hear a motorcycle but you know thats not too bad! I wish I would meet someone new who was at least 5"8 under 160 lbs into guiters, nice car, motorcycle owner, boat owner, and you know just a sweet good looking guy! I swear if I find someone like that I will do anything for them! Anyway I guess I gotta just keep dreaming!