Empty on the outside Full on the inside
OMG I AM SO FUCKING STUPID! I'm really not sure yet how stupid all I know is that it's pretty bad! I wish I could just stay home all day and night and like sew or read or something safe and innocent! I know like everyone is right and that I really should listen to them about Anthony but I don't! And even though today was incredable fucked up with me and Anthony I don't regreat it. I mean I would change parts of it but I mean I liked it. So anyways history repeats itself and it will probebly always do that. Anthony has a gf (yeah another one) and he choose to cheat on her. But we did talk a little bit tonight ok so a lot of it was about I'an and Shannon and other people that hate him but we talked about us. Problem is I don't know if I bealive a fucking word that comes out of his dame mouth. Anyways there is really no use repeating any of it. Anyways my friends are so sick of me complaining to them so i guess i am going to lock up and hide even more from them then I already do! I just wish I could sleep for a straight week without any interuptions. Then maybe when I wake up things will be different. Also I could go through withdrawel. See with me guys are drugs and i get addicted. See with Bobby I promised I would give him up and I stopped and now I only talk to him on occasion and its purely causual. Right now I can't even so my life without Anthony but I mean I just know he is bad for me and I have got to give him up. Tommorow I am taking a thinking day. I am not leaving my house or answering my phone I am just going to be by myself and think and write about shit. Ok well I am going to go find something that will help me go to sleep good night!