Why Don't You Just Drop Dead
Ok my Mom is driving me nuts with the whole my birthday thing! It's so retarted that she doesn't let me spend the night at my best friends house I mean seriously it's my birthday and I am young I should be out celebrating! Anyways I saw Alaina today I love that girl! I cleaned a lot today and my house is now really clean thanks to me! Tommorow is my family birthday party. Wish is nerve wrecking for me because my Mom has this thing where she tells people way too much so everyone either hates me or just really does not trust me! Oh well I gotta smile through it and be nice so that I can get money and presents. Ok that was a selfish bitchy thing to say I do have to admit. But w/e I mean must teenagers feel that exact same way about family birthdays. My Aunt wants me to go there on my birthday and she wants to take me out to dinner. Um whats up with that we haven't really spoken all summer! I just wish my parents trusted me so that I could stay home alone and have a good birthday. I really hope Anthony comes home by then! But he probebly won't so I am trying to mentally prepare myself for the dissapointment. Anyways I have nothing much to write about since I have been staying home a lot lately. It's weird though because usually being home this much depresses me but ever since I talked to Alaina when she spent the night I have changed. Ok this is chessy I know but she is perfect and even though she is younger then me I really look up to her!