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It's been a while. Today in camp I felt uber pain in my chest. Particularly at the metal bar area. It felt like shit. So er yeah I got sent to medical centre and the MO let me rest in the sick bay. When I went in, I remembered the times I spent in the hospital after my surgery resting. You were there next to me, now you're not. I kept on trying to pretend that you were here with me. Telling me that things are gonna be okay.
I was supposed to meet her just now after her appt. But somehow things got changed and she had no time to meet with me. So she said meet another time ba. I felt so sad. I was anticipating meeting her since like sunday night duty. It was the only thing that I was looking forward to. Where are you Charyl? I need you so much. I miss you so much. I love you so much. I was planning to kneel in front of her if I was gonna see her. Kneel and like say whatever I wanted to say.
I want to start afresh with you. I really honestly want to. I've never been one to beg for anything because of my pride and ego but this time its different. I don't want to live my life without you. I always felt that we were meant to be together.
I was supposed to meet her just now after her appt. But somehow things got changed and she had no time to meet with me. So she said meet another time ba. I felt so sad. I was anticipating meeting her since like sunday night duty. It was the only thing that I was looking forward to. Where are you Charyl? I need you so much. I miss you so much. I love you so much. I was planning to kneel in front of her if I was gonna see her. Kneel and like say whatever I wanted to say.
I want to start afresh with you. I really honestly want to. I've never been one to beg for anything because of my pride and ego but this time its different. I don't want to live my life without you. I always felt that we were meant to be together.