the month from hell continues

[sowhatimcrazy]

2 weeks ago Dia had to be put down as her nervous system slowly shut down. and now Aaryn is gone. that is the hardest thing to write. Aaryn, my love, my heart, my Zookie, my wifey, my girl, is gone. Never did i light shine as bright as Aaryn's. Never was a smile as big and a heart as warm. Yesterday Aaryn passed. Life will never be the same. I know i shouldn't be selfish. I know that she's better know. That she can breath. That she can walk, and talk, and run, without a problem, but i want her back. I want to tell her again that i love her. I want her to get her transplant. I want her to live to be old and gray. I want her to sit with her puppy and me with my kitten and blast Ace of Base and Savage Garden and AFI and MCR and scream the lyrics at the top of our lungs. I want to eat Japanese and attempt to use chopsticks. I want to play mini golf and race those stupid cars. I want to kick and scream and cry. I want to know why. I want to know she's ok. I want my heart back. But the other side says she's healthy now. She's alive now. She's strong now. She's the person she always wanted to be. She's always in my heart and my mind and my life. Just now she's everywhere.

Aaryn, you will always be remembered and never forgotten. You are the most incredible person. I know i told you this but I never stopped admiring you for your strength. You were so much stronger than you knew. 5.18.87-12.01.06

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