You die a little bit each time you smile - so grit your teeth, they like you happy.
Today was okay-ish, but it was still extremely depressing. The downfall was at lunch. I got really pissed off when I realized that I am, indeed, rather unwanted by particular people who I used to hang out with and I stormed off to go be by myself, as I always seem to be. I went to the bathroom on the verge of tears but decided that I was not going to sink THAT low over this bullshit and pulled myself together. Blah. FUCK school, and fuck stupid people.
Then the rest of the day I was still upset over that until my mom picked me up in 4th block.. but then she told me that Laura, Sami, & Kimi stopped by while I was at school to "visit" and get some weed and that they went to juniper(sp?) springs or some shit. What the fuck is that? You all go on a ditch day and don't even tell me you're planning it and then go to MY house to bum weed off MY mom? Jesus christ, that's fucked up. But I would expect no less from human beings.. so whatever. So hearing about that upset me again, and then I remembered my grandparents are here visiting now. God. I fucking hate houseguests. It's not even that I have anything against this particlar set of grandparents, they are sweet people, it's just that I hate all of the restraints having guests puts on the freedom and comfort of your own home. I hate having people I'm obligated to spend time with like that, and I hate having to act a particular way because people who's fucking opinions matter are here. Ugh.
Anyway.. after my mom picked me up we ran a few errands. I got another nice gay boys movie at blockbuster, lol. And we rented finding neverland. And I got a few things at target, including a shirt to screenprint the official muffin of our gang on.. yay. Well that's about all I have to say.. so later.
Then the rest of the day I was still upset over that until my mom picked me up in 4th block.. but then she told me that Laura, Sami, & Kimi stopped by while I was at school to "visit" and get some weed and that they went to juniper(sp?) springs or some shit. What the fuck is that? You all go on a ditch day and don't even tell me you're planning it and then go to MY house to bum weed off MY mom? Jesus christ, that's fucked up. But I would expect no less from human beings.. so whatever. So hearing about that upset me again, and then I remembered my grandparents are here visiting now. God. I fucking hate houseguests. It's not even that I have anything against this particlar set of grandparents, they are sweet people, it's just that I hate all of the restraints having guests puts on the freedom and comfort of your own home. I hate having people I'm obligated to spend time with like that, and I hate having to act a particular way because people who's fucking opinions matter are here. Ugh.
Anyway.. after my mom picked me up we ran a few errands. I got another nice gay boys movie at blockbuster, lol. And we rented finding neverland. And I got a few things at target, including a shirt to screenprint the official muffin of our gang on.. yay. Well that's about all I have to say.. so later.