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So yesterday...I went to savannahs at like 430..and we went to RJs with matt and this kid nick..well we went swimming and all that good stuff..well i didnt really because i couldnt get my hair wet...even tho savannah kinda splashed me but oh well. So then they made a fire or something...well they tried to...and then..stuff....and yeah...i dont wanna talk about it.
So then later the brittany girl who called me a slut came with her "boyfriend" and someone else..this cool kid i forget his name :( he drove a minivan to matts house lol it was so pimp...but the thing is he doesnt have his licence...HAMMAD! or something thats his name! woot.
So i donno...I just feel really bad about dan. I like him SOOO much...and I just have these ups and downs. Its never even him either its always me... hes so perfect...like we were talking and..i just feel so bad i have been such a shitty girlfriend to him and i want to make it up to him..especially after yesterday. I dont know whats wrong with me...I dont appricate things liek i used to...I WOULD blame it on a certain person but i always do..and it kinda is his fault. NEVER EVER ONCE did i even THINK about cheating on someone before i was with him. and i dont want to be like that..cause i wouldnt want someone to do that to me, and I actually dreamed about it all last night...and i don tknow what i would do if dan was doing the shit i was doing...i WOULD be heartbroken and i give him credit for...just i donno...dealing with it or w/e he is doing, i guess holding on?
And i always say this to him...but i really want to be better. this is...and i swear...the last time i will do something stupid..and if i do, do nething stupid again...i cant let him be with me...because its not fair to him and i want him to have what he deserves....God i dont know whats wrong with me. Im gonna stop complaining.
loveme
So then later the brittany girl who called me a slut came with her "boyfriend" and someone else..this cool kid i forget his name :( he drove a minivan to matts house lol it was so pimp...but the thing is he doesnt have his licence...HAMMAD! or something thats his name! woot.
So i donno...I just feel really bad about dan. I like him SOOO much...and I just have these ups and downs. Its never even him either its always me... hes so perfect...like we were talking and..i just feel so bad i have been such a shitty girlfriend to him and i want to make it up to him..especially after yesterday. I dont know whats wrong with me...I dont appricate things liek i used to...I WOULD blame it on a certain person but i always do..and it kinda is his fault. NEVER EVER ONCE did i even THINK about cheating on someone before i was with him. and i dont want to be like that..cause i wouldnt want someone to do that to me, and I actually dreamed about it all last night...and i don tknow what i would do if dan was doing the shit i was doing...i WOULD be heartbroken and i give him credit for...just i donno...dealing with it or w/e he is doing, i guess holding on?
And i always say this to him...but i really want to be better. this is...and i swear...the last time i will do something stupid..and if i do, do nething stupid again...i cant let him be with me...because its not fair to him and i want him to have what he deserves....God i dont know whats wrong with me. Im gonna stop complaining.
loveme