LURKER!
I want to call him, but i'm nervous..
hehe
but i guess he gave me his number for a reason.
hmm.. I might get to see him in a couple weeks..
Keep your fingers crossed. =]]]]
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things are wierd right now. I have to go to Kaiser and get my Depo shot.. i also want to find out what's wrong with my head. I think something is serious. I have headaches all the time. ALWAYS. they never go away, and most of the time they are migrane status.. I keep thinking the worst.. Maybe i need a Catscan. (sp?) I just don't know. No medications work on me. I'm worried.
And.. i haven't been eating lately. No appetite. None. What's up with me these days? I guess i'm just no happy right now. Not happy living here, not happy having no one to talk to, no one's shoulder to cry on.
Have you ever had that feeling? It's like i'm the only one who knows i'm here. And sometimes that's not even for sure.
Time to take some meds or something. I know it's not a good way to get rid of emotional pain. But that's all i have right now.
I've been just sitting here. Thinking of everything from why some flowers are they colors they are, How I can move my pinky toe and not my ears... I'm left out of everything.. why? i dunno.
I'm a nut case. Maybe i should be commited. arg
[confused]
[lifeless]
[tired]
[in pain]
[need a smoke]
tag your it.