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[southwest6]

I'm thankful for my years spent with this family; for everything we shared, every chance we had to grow. I'll take the best of them and lead by their example; where ever I go... This isn't what I want, but I'll take the high road. Maybe it's because I look at everything as a lesson, or I don't want to walk around angry. Or maybe it's because I

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[southwest6]

you know when life turns around and kicks you in the teeth when you least expect it? Like when you're waiting for a bus. It's about work of course, my entire life and emotions seem to revolve around my new job and where I trained and people making things difficult. And friends making it hard to move on. People that I respect actually telling me how sad they are for me to go, people encouraging me to write letters and pretty much beg for a job coz they actually want me to work with them. Then I find 2 people got offered full-time jobs at the place I trained because now they've managed to miraculously find some money. Amongst the 'family' I trained with. Just when I got used to the fact I'm leaving those people and that place behind I can't help but think if I'd hung on that I could be there to. I could be happy there. But now it's too late for me to work there. Thanks, universe, for that one.

Now I re-read this, I guess if you don't know the context it looks pretty bad. I was just absolutely gutted (Did your English boy say gutted a lot?) and then later when I was watching TV a character said the above and it made perfect sense.

Or maybe it's because I finally understand. There are things we don't want to happen, but have to accept; things we don't want to know, but have to learn, and people we can't live without, but have to let go.

Urgh. Like I said, just one of those really 'kick you whilst you're down' things.