Whoa..Its Been Awhile
It's Been Awhile Since I Updated,But I Apologize, I've Been Really Busy With Work, And School, Just Havent Had Time To Get On Here. But I Want You All To Know That I Will Leave Comments When I Can. I'm Really Sorry.
So Anyways..Lets See What Has Happened Since I Last Updated,..I'm Over The FLU, And My Ear Infection,Which Is Good..Because I'm Always Sick.
School...I Don't Know What's Up With Me, But Im Slackin In All My Classes Besides English And I Dont Know Why.I Dont Want To Fail AGAIN, I've Failed Alot Already, And Im Never Gonna Make It Out Of High School. Maybe I Need To Go To The Doctor And Maybe They Can Figure It Out. What Do You Guys Think?
The Past Couple Days...I've Been In "My Moods" That I Get, Where I Dont Want To Talk To Anyone, DOnt Wanna Be Around Anyone, And I Just Feel Like I Have Noone There, When Really I Have Alot Of People Thats Always Gonna Be By My Side. I Just Wish They Wouldnt Come, Ya Know What I Mean?..And I Feel Confused All The Time Here Lately, So I Dont Know Whats Up With That Either.
Work... Its Going Good Havent Called Off In A Week, So Thats GREAT!,Sometimes It Gets Annoying Dealing With All Those Children,But I Wouldnt Give It Up For Just About Anything..Unless There Was Money Involved!! And then I Have My Times Where It's The Best..So I Dont Know.
The Other Day After Work My Mom Picked Me Up Like Usually..And As Soon As I Got In The SUV, She Started Fucking Yellin At Me For The Stupidest Most Dumbest Reason...Because I Didnt Buy A Gym Suit Yet, What The Hell.. Come On Now..Its Gym Who Really Cares About It.. And Then She Went On About How I Will Never Amount To Anything, Because Ive Failed, And Im A Loser. She Called Me Tony My Sisters Baby's Daddy. And She Also Said That My Dad Doesnt Care About Me, He Just Lets Me Think He Does. And If You Know Me VERY Well You Should Know I Love My Dad Alot, And I Would Do Anything.. I Mean ANYTHING For Him, So When She Said That, All I Could Do Was Bust Out In Tears. Me And My Dad Have A Bond That Noone Else In The House Has With Him. And I Wouldnt Give It Up For Anything., And Dont Get Me Wrong I Love My Mom Because Shes Wonderful.
I Dont Care How I Say This, Or If You May Think Its A Little Harsh, But You Deserve It....So Here It Goes.. When We First Started Talking A Couple Months Ago It Was Great, I Loved It, We'd Always Talk About Each Other, And Get To Know Each Other. I Actually Wanted To Get To Know You Alot Better And Go From There. When You Told Me Why You Havent Had A Girl In 4 Years, I Actually Felt Sorry For You, And When You Told Me You'd Wait For Me As Long As I Needed.. Well Let Me Ask You.. What Happened To That? Cause Every Since You Got Out..(You Know What Im Talkin About, Im Not Gonna Post Your Personal Things On Here).You Havent Talked To Me That Much, And When You Have YOu've Always...ALWAYS Had A Reason Why You Cant Talk To Me, So You Know What I Say About That.. Fuck It All. I Dont Need You In My Life, Even Though I Would Of Liked To Become Better Friends, And Then See Where It Went After That, But Not Now Im Through With It. I've Had Enough Of The Bullshit Reasons,And You Also Said You Werent Like Most Guys? Haha What Were You On That Day?..And You Know It Makes Me Sad..Because I Actually Thought You Were Different, And I Believed Every Damn Thing You Said, Which It Was All A Lie. But As I Always Say..Thanks For It, Cause As Of Today,And Everyday You Just Made Me Little Bit Stronger.
Alisha..I Hope You Feel Better, And You Better Call Me So You Can Come Over. I Love You. Best Friends Forever *&* Always. You Know Its Gonna Be FOREVER! , Cant Noone Take Your Place. Your The Bestest Best. LOVE YOU ALISHA MARIE LEWIS!!!..Oh And Someone Took Our Poster Down In The Hallway. ASSHOLESSSSSSSSSSSssss.
S.*N*.A...Don't Get No Better Than That BITCHES!!!
So Anyways..Lets See What Has Happened Since I Last Updated,..I'm Over The FLU, And My Ear Infection,Which Is Good..Because I'm Always Sick.
School...I Don't Know What's Up With Me, But Im Slackin In All My Classes Besides English And I Dont Know Why.I Dont Want To Fail AGAIN, I've Failed Alot Already, And Im Never Gonna Make It Out Of High School. Maybe I Need To Go To The Doctor And Maybe They Can Figure It Out. What Do You Guys Think?
The Past Couple Days...I've Been In "My Moods" That I Get, Where I Dont Want To Talk To Anyone, DOnt Wanna Be Around Anyone, And I Just Feel Like I Have Noone There, When Really I Have Alot Of People Thats Always Gonna Be By My Side. I Just Wish They Wouldnt Come, Ya Know What I Mean?..And I Feel Confused All The Time Here Lately, So I Dont Know Whats Up With That Either.
Work... Its Going Good Havent Called Off In A Week, So Thats GREAT!,Sometimes It Gets Annoying Dealing With All Those Children,But I Wouldnt Give It Up For Just About Anything..Unless There Was Money Involved!! And then I Have My Times Where It's The Best..So I Dont Know.
The Other Day After Work My Mom Picked Me Up Like Usually..And As Soon As I Got In The SUV, She Started Fucking Yellin At Me For The Stupidest Most Dumbest Reason...Because I Didnt Buy A Gym Suit Yet, What The Hell.. Come On Now..Its Gym Who Really Cares About It.. And Then She Went On About How I Will Never Amount To Anything, Because Ive Failed, And Im A Loser. She Called Me Tony My Sisters Baby's Daddy. And She Also Said That My Dad Doesnt Care About Me, He Just Lets Me Think He Does. And If You Know Me VERY Well You Should Know I Love My Dad Alot, And I Would Do Anything.. I Mean ANYTHING For Him, So When She Said That, All I Could Do Was Bust Out In Tears. Me And My Dad Have A Bond That Noone Else In The House Has With Him. And I Wouldnt Give It Up For Anything., And Dont Get Me Wrong I Love My Mom Because Shes Wonderful.
I Dont Care How I Say This, Or If You May Think Its A Little Harsh, But You Deserve It....So Here It Goes.. When We First Started Talking A Couple Months Ago It Was Great, I Loved It, We'd Always Talk About Each Other, And Get To Know Each Other. I Actually Wanted To Get To Know You Alot Better And Go From There. When You Told Me Why You Havent Had A Girl In 4 Years, I Actually Felt Sorry For You, And When You Told Me You'd Wait For Me As Long As I Needed.. Well Let Me Ask You.. What Happened To That? Cause Every Since You Got Out..(You Know What Im Talkin About, Im Not Gonna Post Your Personal Things On Here).You Havent Talked To Me That Much, And When You Have YOu've Always...ALWAYS Had A Reason Why You Cant Talk To Me, So You Know What I Say About That.. Fuck It All. I Dont Need You In My Life, Even Though I Would Of Liked To Become Better Friends, And Then See Where It Went After That, But Not Now Im Through With It. I've Had Enough Of The Bullshit Reasons,And You Also Said You Werent Like Most Guys? Haha What Were You On That Day?..And You Know It Makes Me Sad..Because I Actually Thought You Were Different, And I Believed Every Damn Thing You Said, Which It Was All A Lie. But As I Always Say..Thanks For It, Cause As Of Today,And Everyday You Just Made Me Little Bit Stronger.
Alisha..I Hope You Feel Better, And You Better Call Me So You Can Come Over. I Love You. Best Friends Forever *&* Always. You Know Its Gonna Be FOREVER! , Cant Noone Take Your Place. Your The Bestest Best. LOVE YOU ALISHA MARIE LEWIS!!!..Oh And Someone Took Our Poster Down In The Hallway. ASSHOLESSSSSSSSSSSssss.
S.*N*.A...Don't Get No Better Than That BITCHES!!!