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As You All Are Wondering..What Happend To Me. Some Good And Bad That Has Happend
Good
• I've Turned 18,Which Is Not A Big Deal To Me Anyways.Just Another Day.
• Me And Ashlyn Are Still Friends...And Will Continue To Be Friends...FOREVER!
• I Love To Buy Shoes...Seriously Everytime I Go Shopping I Always Buy A New Pair. Of Course K-Swiss' Or Birkenstocks. They My Favorita!
Bad
• Well Recently I Met A Guy Off Of Yahoo, Where I Used To Work..Which Was Toy's R Us. We Were Talking For Awhile Before We Met. After We Met, We Tried To Work Things Out So We Could Be Together, But It Didn't Turn Out Like I'd Planned. It Was Mostly My Fault..Which I Do Own Up To It, Considering I Didn't Put Anything Into It To Try To Make It Work. Honestly I Thought It Was All A Big Joke Until I Actually Sat Down And Thought About It. I've Said Sorry So Many Times, And Yes I Do Know That Saying Sorry Sometimes Doesnt Help. And As You All Know My Mom Had Alot To Do With It Also..Cause Shes So Protective Of Me. I Really Dont Know what To Do. Me And Him Have Talked A Couple Times, But Everytime We Do...All The Feelings Come Rushing Back..And Yes It Feels Good To Know That Someone Cares And Wants To Be With Me, But Honestly Im Not Ready For A Relationship, I Still Have Alot To Learn. At One Point In The Period Of Time We Were Talking.. I Thought I Was Actually Falling In Love, But I Really Wasnt. You Cant Love Someone You Cant See. Ive Learned Alot About This Experience..And Its Only Made Me Stronger. I Continue To Say To My Self That Eventually One Day We Will Be Together..Only Time Can Tell. He's Made Me Realize Alot Of Things That I Was Too Blind To See. When I Think About It..I Get Tears In My Eyes, Because I Know He Tried His Best And Liked Me...I Pushed Him Away Just Like Everyone Else.Ive Shared Things With Him That I Would Have Never Shared With Some Other Guy.. And I Trusted Him..Which I Still Do. I Thought Alot About Him.. I Tried To Act Like He Meant Alot To Me Just Like My Niece, But I Was Only Kidding My Self.I Really Dont Know what To Do, Because If I Tell My Mom About Him Then Its Gonna Make Things Worse. And Ive Thought About Waiting Til Me And My Best Friend Gets An Apartment Together And Then Me And Him Could Definitely Have A Relationship, But Hes Not Gonna Wait Forever On Me. Even Though I Wish He Would Wait For Me To Get My Priorities Straight And To Get Through School But A Man Can Only Take So Much...Just Like Anyone Else. Well Enough Of Me Rambling On About That.
Because When Shes Holding You..Know That It's Killing Me.Let My Memory Be The Reason That You Cant Sleep.And Everytime You Feel Her Touch..I Pray To God Its Not Enough..*
Good
• I've Turned 18,Which Is Not A Big Deal To Me Anyways.Just Another Day.
• Me And Ashlyn Are Still Friends...And Will Continue To Be Friends...FOREVER!
• I Love To Buy Shoes...Seriously Everytime I Go Shopping I Always Buy A New Pair. Of Course K-Swiss' Or Birkenstocks. They My Favorita!
Bad
• Well Recently I Met A Guy Off Of Yahoo, Where I Used To Work..Which Was Toy's R Us. We Were Talking For Awhile Before We Met. After We Met, We Tried To Work Things Out So We Could Be Together, But It Didn't Turn Out Like I'd Planned. It Was Mostly My Fault..Which I Do Own Up To It, Considering I Didn't Put Anything Into It To Try To Make It Work. Honestly I Thought It Was All A Big Joke Until I Actually Sat Down And Thought About It. I've Said Sorry So Many Times, And Yes I Do Know That Saying Sorry Sometimes Doesnt Help. And As You All Know My Mom Had Alot To Do With It Also..Cause Shes So Protective Of Me. I Really Dont Know what To Do. Me And Him Have Talked A Couple Times, But Everytime We Do...All The Feelings Come Rushing Back..And Yes It Feels Good To Know That Someone Cares And Wants To Be With Me, But Honestly Im Not Ready For A Relationship, I Still Have Alot To Learn. At One Point In The Period Of Time We Were Talking.. I Thought I Was Actually Falling In Love, But I Really Wasnt. You Cant Love Someone You Cant See. Ive Learned Alot About This Experience..And Its Only Made Me Stronger. I Continue To Say To My Self That Eventually One Day We Will Be Together..Only Time Can Tell. He's Made Me Realize Alot Of Things That I Was Too Blind To See. When I Think About It..I Get Tears In My Eyes, Because I Know He Tried His Best And Liked Me...I Pushed Him Away Just Like Everyone Else.Ive Shared Things With Him That I Would Have Never Shared With Some Other Guy.. And I Trusted Him..Which I Still Do. I Thought Alot About Him.. I Tried To Act Like He Meant Alot To Me Just Like My Niece, But I Was Only Kidding My Self.I Really Dont Know what To Do, Because If I Tell My Mom About Him Then Its Gonna Make Things Worse. And Ive Thought About Waiting Til Me And My Best Friend Gets An Apartment Together And Then Me And Him Could Definitely Have A Relationship, But Hes Not Gonna Wait Forever On Me. Even Though I Wish He Would Wait For Me To Get My Priorities Straight And To Get Through School But A Man Can Only Take So Much...Just Like Anyone Else. Well Enough Of Me Rambling On About That.
Because When Shes Holding You..Know That It's Killing Me.Let My Memory Be The Reason That You Cant Sleep.And Everytime You Feel Her Touch..I Pray To God Its Not Enough..*