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WOW its been a stressfull past few weeks. ive spent my life at BDT workin on Annie stuff and im somewhat anxious to see how it will turn out. im sure it will be awesome as all of JV's stuff is. anyways school is getting hectic with exams coming up. teachers are cramming new sections in and i barely got my exam study guides 3 days before the actual exam. i guess ill just have to stay positive and hope for the best. its starting to get to me that my whole group of friends for the past two years are all going their separate ways and wont be around anymore. im really going to miss graham and glenn and havent figured out what im going to do without them yet. things with clay have been uneasy lately but for some reason i havent quite figured out what it is that is causing it. i had started to think that things had passed but its definatly still haunting me day after day. ive also realized that i completely wear my feelings on my sleeve since one thing goes wrong an i keep it to myself and suddenly everyone's asking whats wrong. kinda bothers me but i guess i cant do a whole lot about it. im ready for summer so i can get away from all the everyday drama and hassle and just be me! :-)anyways if everything works out right ill be at the beach with clay in 2 or 3 weeks. not sure how thats gonna turn out yet tho. for some reason i just feel un sure and insecure about several things and its bothering me A LOT. i need to work on that....self confidence seems to be an issue at times:-/. i also find myself being too picky and worrying too much. im realizing right now that i have hmm flaws i need to work on and hopefully find a way to deal with them. im aware that no ones perfect but whats wrong with trying your best?