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if its so good for me, then why does it still hurt so badly? it was obvious from the beginning that it wasn't right, but i so wanted to make it that way. it could have worked. if you want it that badly then it should happen.. it wasn't.. i gave up. i was told i was giving up, and i just did what i thought was best for me. seeing it tonight hurt. a hurt i haven't known. ever. i feel nixed up. the two sides colliding in a scramble of emotions and thoughts. both hinting at the same resolution. i did give up. i know it. but they never tried. what choice did i have? i took the easy road. yes. but it comes full circle. its hard tonight. its hard now. tomorrow is a new day.