And We've Come Full Circle
So now I'm jobless...
But I'm happy. I was gonna work for a bit longer til school started. (Because with classes from 10:oo-4:oo Mon-Thurs it would be kinda impossible) However, with all the shit that was going on there... I couldn't take it anymore. I did a 3 and a half year run which kinda proves how much im into self punishment. I just can't work in a place where I come home in a hostile and depressed state of mind, unable to even draw to relax.
My boss only gave me two days to try and prove a point that he didn't need me I guess...shrugs. Doesn't really matter I had put in a notice at the beginning of the month so he could have time to hire a replacement, since me and 2 other girls were leaving...He only hired one.
I had 11:oo-7:oo Sunday and at the end of the week a closing shift on Saturday. I wanted to end on a good note, so I decided that I was gonna be as nice as possible to people. But that was quickly snuffed out. Just the mindset of some of the customers was appalling. Rude, arrogant and then there were the drunks. There's no better way to describe it than utter shit. I had 5 days off before Saturday and in those days I had started to draw again and enjoy it. You can't imagine that reinvigorating feeling of creativity surging about. Only to come back to work and have to go through crap. It continued to go down hill rapidly as the day progressed. Then it was finally the end of the day and a bunch of people came in at the last minute. The last two customers I had were a drunk and a girl with a bunch of W.I.C sheets. The drunk laid all his stuff on my counter and once I was done ringing it up he told me he had to get more stuff. At this point I just called the manage over so we can save his transaction and I could get the woman while “Stumbles the Drunk” got his shit together. When I was half way done with the Wic items here comes old drinky with 2 cases of beer. When he saw that I had pushed his stuff to the side he started to grumble in a drunken mumble/slur which was so bad I couldn't understand any of it...except when he slipped up and called me a “Bitch”. That's what made me snap, a shitty day in a place full of rednecks, retards and assholes galore and this fucktard just called me a bitch. The following conversation started with “Excuse me sir do you have an issue?... and ended with “Fuck you and the horse you rode in on you piece of shit.” I was screaming at a drunk.. you have no idea how self demeaning it is for me to lower myself to those white trash levels. When I finished with the wic and finally got to him he was so drunk he tried to hand me stuff from the buggy that had already been rung up. I had to step to the side and let my manager finish. It was at that point that the words of of one of my closest friend Donryu went through my head and I realized I didn't need this and it was stupid of me to let this drag on. I told my manager “Im done”, I would work the next day but as for the rest of the week I was calling it quits. I was supposed to pull my til at 10:oo but didn't get to til 10:25 and when I finally got home I just took a hot shower and stress cried.
With this out of the way and school on the horizon I will be relying on art as my main source of income but considering I was only making around $400-$450 a month at my job...its not gonna be that hard. I want to apologize for those that had a slow commission response or are currently still waiting. I want to thank y'all for being patient with me and dealing with my bullshit. Believe me i never want to be labeled as one of -those- artist.
All in all I'm relieved, happy and drawing again with passion. For the first time in over half a year I feel alive again. ;___;
Besides the epic job /gquit
I've been focusing on getting back into shape. I want a muscular body but not as far as a professional weight lifter type. I'm also looking into getting a chest binder. My boobs make better pecks.
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Welp thats it for now. I'll be on Aim more and skype more often. For now I'm off to draw. :>