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happy belated Valentines Day!
My Valentines day sucked!
I didnt get to see my bf and i didnt get to go anywhere.
Im really kind of upset but i guess theres nothing i can do about it...many times i feel my relationship is going down the drain...ive been depressed lately and nothing seems to be cheering me up... i dont know what do to any more...my life is crap or atleast feels like it... i dont think cj is into me anymore...i kno hes a busy kid and cant base his life entirely on me... but atleast for one day would be nice or a few hours...i hope he doesnt read this and get madd...thats the last thing i would want him to be like towards me...i mean i really love the kid and everything and he says it back but he has sum way of showing it sometimes...maybe its just me and i might be bashing him but i dont know what to do any more....people have been telling me to break up with him and that i see m unhappy but thats not the case i love him alot alot like more than any one could imagine...im just afraid my hearts going to get hurt by him with him possibly not being interested in my any more and wanting to break up with me. i dont know what to do. maybe im jsut frustrated..and some people say im jsut tired but ive slept on this for weeks! and i still feel the same ...not to mention life at school isnt too great either...
i need a hug or something... i fukin hate valentines day and this isnt the first year ive hated it.
sorry for babbling i needed to let it out and hopefully someone might have a word of advice or might care about it.
i think im super jaded about guys....esecially now...
i love you cj.
My Valentines day sucked!
I didnt get to see my bf and i didnt get to go anywhere.
Im really kind of upset but i guess theres nothing i can do about it...many times i feel my relationship is going down the drain...ive been depressed lately and nothing seems to be cheering me up... i dont know what do to any more...my life is crap or atleast feels like it... i dont think cj is into me anymore...i kno hes a busy kid and cant base his life entirely on me... but atleast for one day would be nice or a few hours...i hope he doesnt read this and get madd...thats the last thing i would want him to be like towards me...i mean i really love the kid and everything and he says it back but he has sum way of showing it sometimes...maybe its just me and i might be bashing him but i dont know what to do any more....people have been telling me to break up with him and that i see m unhappy but thats not the case i love him alot alot like more than any one could imagine...im just afraid my hearts going to get hurt by him with him possibly not being interested in my any more and wanting to break up with me. i dont know what to do. maybe im jsut frustrated..and some people say im jsut tired but ive slept on this for weeks! and i still feel the same ...not to mention life at school isnt too great either...
i need a hug or something... i fukin hate valentines day and this isnt the first year ive hated it.
sorry for babbling i needed to let it out and hopefully someone might have a word of advice or might care about it.
i think im super jaded about guys....esecially now...
i love you cj.