i want to hate you. so bad.
I probably have bitched about this before. Oh well.
When going through my lovely facebook inbox, I come across the message that makes me want to punch someone. Literally. I read it, just because I can't avoid it. It brings everything back. I want to go off and yell at her so bad, but I can't bring myself to do it. I prefer to be the mature one and stay away from conflict and be distantly polite (thats the most I can manage). Many of you will not get this. But just listen to the attitude and the shots taken at me and maybe you'll understand why I'm so pissed, again.
Beth: Well it has been quite a while cousin. I trust you are having a lovely summer and it seems you and the rest of your family has not been traveling much or at least not up our way. Now the grandmother said you were coming up last week, I just wanted to see if you actually paid her a visit or not. I don't mean to sound hasty, but some frequent visits from any of you would be nice (I don't believe you all are having any busier of a summer than us.)
Me:yea i stayed there for a while...storm came so i had to leave
Beth:Wow! I am glad you "stayed there for a while." So did you decide to come or did your mother send you because she didn't want to come? Perhaps you could have also taken it upon yourself to maybe stay a day or two, contact us to see if you could do anything for her, and then possibly taken her to her doctor's appointment Friday that Dad had to take her to because Nicole and Alex were working and Mom and I were still at Orientation, but I'm sure that doesn't bother you that he had to stop working in the hay, which he needed to finish, just to take her. Although I guess the aroma of cat shit in her house was what drove you away..right? Well hopefully you made it to this point before you run to your mother and "tell on me" because I'm not doing it to piss you off, but rather to voice my frustrations that have been present for quite some time. I understand you all do not want to deal with her, but face it we have had to since the day Uncle Barry died. Now you can choose not to respond and that is fine because honestly I am past caring whether you all visit your mother/grandmother, just stop to think how much we have done for her and how little you all have. Also just to add, your mother better not phone my mother at work, because unlike your mother my mother has an actual job where she works and does not have time for petty phone calls! It's been a pleasure, I hope you enjoy the rest of your summer and be sure to think of me if you travel to the beach, since we don't get to do that sort of thing around here.
Me:It is obvious you don't know me very well, or you wouldn't say some of those things...I'll do my best to answer all of your questions. I came on my own, after work and before skit practice(for church). I'm afraid I couldn't stay a day or two as much as I'd like to. Her house doesn't smell...and even if it did I wouldn't let it stop me from visiting my grandmother. You have no right to assume anything about my family. She is my grandmother and of course I want to help her out the best I can, so don't assume otherwise. Also I don't appreciate you talking about my mom that way. That was uncalled for, and quite mean.
Now that I've said my piece...I hope you are having a lovely time at college. Things are really hectic here at UNCG...its taking me sometime to get used to classes and such. My room mate is really nice, we get along well...so i lucked out. Hope you are enjoying college.
Just the basic plot. My grandmother lives in Virginia and is mentally deteriorating. Its a fact of life. I hate it. My mother and I do our best to go up there as much as we can. Its an hr drive and is difficult to make frequently. Her fam. lives right there. Like a minute away.
I can't say anymore, I'm too pissed. Just reading that sets me off again. Sigh.
When going through my lovely facebook inbox, I come across the message that makes me want to punch someone. Literally. I read it, just because I can't avoid it. It brings everything back. I want to go off and yell at her so bad, but I can't bring myself to do it. I prefer to be the mature one and stay away from conflict and be distantly polite (thats the most I can manage). Many of you will not get this. But just listen to the attitude and the shots taken at me and maybe you'll understand why I'm so pissed, again.
Beth: Well it has been quite a while cousin. I trust you are having a lovely summer and it seems you and the rest of your family has not been traveling much or at least not up our way. Now the grandmother said you were coming up last week, I just wanted to see if you actually paid her a visit or not. I don't mean to sound hasty, but some frequent visits from any of you would be nice (I don't believe you all are having any busier of a summer than us.)
Me:yea i stayed there for a while...storm came so i had to leave
Beth:Wow! I am glad you "stayed there for a while." So did you decide to come or did your mother send you because she didn't want to come? Perhaps you could have also taken it upon yourself to maybe stay a day or two, contact us to see if you could do anything for her, and then possibly taken her to her doctor's appointment Friday that Dad had to take her to because Nicole and Alex were working and Mom and I were still at Orientation, but I'm sure that doesn't bother you that he had to stop working in the hay, which he needed to finish, just to take her. Although I guess the aroma of cat shit in her house was what drove you away..right? Well hopefully you made it to this point before you run to your mother and "tell on me" because I'm not doing it to piss you off, but rather to voice my frustrations that have been present for quite some time. I understand you all do not want to deal with her, but face it we have had to since the day Uncle Barry died. Now you can choose not to respond and that is fine because honestly I am past caring whether you all visit your mother/grandmother, just stop to think how much we have done for her and how little you all have. Also just to add, your mother better not phone my mother at work, because unlike your mother my mother has an actual job where she works and does not have time for petty phone calls! It's been a pleasure, I hope you enjoy the rest of your summer and be sure to think of me if you travel to the beach, since we don't get to do that sort of thing around here.
Me:It is obvious you don't know me very well, or you wouldn't say some of those things...I'll do my best to answer all of your questions. I came on my own, after work and before skit practice(for church). I'm afraid I couldn't stay a day or two as much as I'd like to. Her house doesn't smell...and even if it did I wouldn't let it stop me from visiting my grandmother. You have no right to assume anything about my family. She is my grandmother and of course I want to help her out the best I can, so don't assume otherwise. Also I don't appreciate you talking about my mom that way. That was uncalled for, and quite mean.
Now that I've said my piece...I hope you are having a lovely time at college. Things are really hectic here at UNCG...its taking me sometime to get used to classes and such. My room mate is really nice, we get along well...so i lucked out. Hope you are enjoying college.
Just the basic plot. My grandmother lives in Virginia and is mentally deteriorating. Its a fact of life. I hate it. My mother and I do our best to go up there as much as we can. Its an hr drive and is difficult to make frequently. Her fam. lives right there. Like a minute away.
I can't say anymore, I'm too pissed. Just reading that sets me off again. Sigh.