all i know is that we're falling apart...
this thanksgiving was one of the best but most lonley. all on my mind was mike. i loved being around my twinkies and everyone. it was like when we were young. playing again. just not playing like kids. i love those boys with all my heart. i'm glad everyone got along this year. i'm glad i had a good time.
all on my mind today was mike. i hate that we are falling apart like this. maybe i can't do anything to help the relationship part but i can help the friendship in someway. should i just drop it? some people tell me i am kinda pathetic. i just care about him so much, i don't care what anyone has to say about it. i'd give the world for that boy. how can i feel that way about someone who has hurt me SO bad? i love him. he took care of me. he made me feel a way like nobody ever has. he made me feel beautiful and happy. should i talk to him? why even care? he's moved on.. unlike me. heh. i don't even know if i should tell him all this.
when will i find true friends again? it seems there are none out there. i was dick to the ones that were real.
all on my mind today was mike. i hate that we are falling apart like this. maybe i can't do anything to help the relationship part but i can help the friendship in someway. should i just drop it? some people tell me i am kinda pathetic. i just care about him so much, i don't care what anyone has to say about it. i'd give the world for that boy. how can i feel that way about someone who has hurt me SO bad? i love him. he took care of me. he made me feel a way like nobody ever has. he made me feel beautiful and happy. should i talk to him? why even care? he's moved on.. unlike me. heh. i don't even know if i should tell him all this.
when will i find true friends again? it seems there are none out there. i was dick to the ones that were real.