dirty.
so i had a good birthday. the one thing that made it a hundred percent better was rb calling me. actually saying sorry. yeah suprised? i had a good ol' time. hung out with the norms then rb and mitchell came with us to hang with hernandez. good times. (yeah i'm just waiting for your ass to call me, jackass.) haa.
so i figured things out. well about my whole mess. i figured out what made me keep going back to that. yeah, pathetic. i know. why is it that you'll do something to hurt yourself for someone not worth it? go for something because it reminds you of someone/something. hmph. it's been since his freshman year. that's almost four years. i hate laying next to someone and getting that feeling. or seeing that he called while you were gone. and even him calling me at like 3 in the morning. the way you see things but others don't. i hate but at the same time love how i feel when around him. it's crazy cause he has no idea. i feel stupid. gosh. inside i know he's great. i know he's nothing like what he seems like. how he comes off. the looks. yeah i better stop.
it's weird not being in school. i wish more people had graduated when i did. oh well. i'm glad everyone went back to school. good job guys:P i just miss erny and seeing him everyday pretty much.
so i figured things out. well about my whole mess. i figured out what made me keep going back to that. yeah, pathetic. i know. why is it that you'll do something to hurt yourself for someone not worth it? go for something because it reminds you of someone/something. hmph. it's been since his freshman year. that's almost four years. i hate laying next to someone and getting that feeling. or seeing that he called while you were gone. and even him calling me at like 3 in the morning. the way you see things but others don't. i hate but at the same time love how i feel when around him. it's crazy cause he has no idea. i feel stupid. gosh. inside i know he's great. i know he's nothing like what he seems like. how he comes off. the looks. yeah i better stop.
it's weird not being in school. i wish more people had graduated when i did. oh well. i'm glad everyone went back to school. good job guys:P i just miss erny and seeing him everyday pretty much.