and all i need is you now.
this sucks. why aren't i the happy brit that i used to be? i usually loved to be at the lake with my family. having fun. smiling. joking. not anymore. i sit around with the old farts. they really aren't that old. but still. my mom bought me my own whine coolers today. they were good. surprisingly i didn't drink them all. i'm never in the mood to do anything. is that a good thing?
i miss san antonio. i've only been here for a day. how am i going to deal with moving up here? will i be able to handle it? after a while maybe. tonight my aunt and i sat at the pool, after i got back from the lake. we chatted.
the most exciting thing of the day, seeing a snake. haha that was pretty funny. us girls running like little children. my aunt running up to my uncles bar window banging and screaming "oh my god a snake!" bruce was even scared. it was a copperhead. eckk! i'm not a snake person. i played calm, until he brought the gun out to shoot it. guns make me go crazy.
i really wish i could smile and mean it. when i talk to people i feel like they don't want to be talking to me. the girls mainly. i hate that. i go to my mom when i need advice. sometimes i'm scared to. i don't know why bc she's more like my best friend than my mom. i want that best friend that i had with ashley or alyson. **sami emily this is nothing bad against you gguys so don't say anything;P** i could always go to them. they always cared and wanted to hear what i said. sometimes they had their days, i'll admit. i miss going to the park and swinging with aly when i was sad. meeting ryan down there sometimes. yelling thomas' name. heh. why can't i have that best friend again? i think i'd be a lot happier.
i hate all this complaing i'm doing. but i can't help it. i wish that i could have a job. have a best friend. have a 'somebody'. i wish i could be over dan. i don't ever want to think about him again. i want to pretend like he never was there. i want my skin to stop peeling. haha i'm burnt. or was.
oh when my papa wins the lottery he's buying me a dodge viper! and guess what?! I'M GOING TO BEAT RB! haha i'll show him whos faster;P yeah he'll be chasing me.
so yeah preston knwos who i am. wouldn't that be magnificent if i had a chance with him? i'd get over a lot of things.. fast! i guess all i can do is hope and give it time.
so if i end up moving back here, i'm taking a roadtrip to cali! who's up for going with me??? i think i could only go with a guy up there. i'm sorry but like however many days in the same car with a girl, i'd go crazy. nothing against you, sami or emily. that's just how i am. weird!
this is a pointless entry, yet again. i'm tired though. goodnite!!
i miss san antonio. i've only been here for a day. how am i going to deal with moving up here? will i be able to handle it? after a while maybe. tonight my aunt and i sat at the pool, after i got back from the lake. we chatted.
the most exciting thing of the day, seeing a snake. haha that was pretty funny. us girls running like little children. my aunt running up to my uncles bar window banging and screaming "oh my god a snake!" bruce was even scared. it was a copperhead. eckk! i'm not a snake person. i played calm, until he brought the gun out to shoot it. guns make me go crazy.
i really wish i could smile and mean it. when i talk to people i feel like they don't want to be talking to me. the girls mainly. i hate that. i go to my mom when i need advice. sometimes i'm scared to. i don't know why bc she's more like my best friend than my mom. i want that best friend that i had with ashley or alyson. **sami emily this is nothing bad against you gguys so don't say anything;P** i could always go to them. they always cared and wanted to hear what i said. sometimes they had their days, i'll admit. i miss going to the park and swinging with aly when i was sad. meeting ryan down there sometimes. yelling thomas' name. heh. why can't i have that best friend again? i think i'd be a lot happier.
i hate all this complaing i'm doing. but i can't help it. i wish that i could have a job. have a best friend. have a 'somebody'. i wish i could be over dan. i don't ever want to think about him again. i want to pretend like he never was there. i want my skin to stop peeling. haha i'm burnt. or was.
oh when my papa wins the lottery he's buying me a dodge viper! and guess what?! I'M GOING TO BEAT RB! haha i'll show him whos faster;P yeah he'll be chasing me.
so yeah preston knwos who i am. wouldn't that be magnificent if i had a chance with him? i'd get over a lot of things.. fast! i guess all i can do is hope and give it time.
so if i end up moving back here, i'm taking a roadtrip to cali! who's up for going with me??? i think i could only go with a guy up there. i'm sorry but like however many days in the same car with a girl, i'd go crazy. nothing against you, sami or emily. that's just how i am. weird!
this is a pointless entry, yet again. i'm tired though. goodnite!!