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Here I sit in Memphis... at work on at Saturday morning. I have Starbucks and my computer and I wanted to take just moments before I started work to update my journal. I have been doing alot of journaling on my own... long handed lol... who does that anymore.. but, I have really enjoyed the experience.
I have been sober now for alittle while.. and I am so happy about the fact that I am starting to understand myself again. Understand my reasonings and understand that I spent 20 years running from someone.. someone I didn't know... someone that scared the shit out of me... that someone was myself.. and I am spending time getting to know her... and being real with her. I can not truly know myself without taking time to deal with the child that was so hurt and understand that she needs love and that she didn't deserve the treatment that she got. Her soul and my soul are slowly healing. I am grateful for that. It is a slow and long process. But, in the end it will be well worth it.
This week I start my trial process. We are going to do a jury trial in hopes that I don't get convicted. But, if I do.. I will deal with it. I will be sober.. and I will learn the lesson I need to and I will go on with my life.
I am grateful for the job that I have found... I am looking forward to getting back to Atlanta. Two weeks on the road is a long time. I am just about over it... and after everything I need to return here for another week.
Just a quick update.
I have been sober now for alittle while.. and I am so happy about the fact that I am starting to understand myself again. Understand my reasonings and understand that I spent 20 years running from someone.. someone I didn't know... someone that scared the shit out of me... that someone was myself.. and I am spending time getting to know her... and being real with her. I can not truly know myself without taking time to deal with the child that was so hurt and understand that she needs love and that she didn't deserve the treatment that she got. Her soul and my soul are slowly healing. I am grateful for that. It is a slow and long process. But, in the end it will be well worth it.
This week I start my trial process. We are going to do a jury trial in hopes that I don't get convicted. But, if I do.. I will deal with it. I will be sober.. and I will learn the lesson I need to and I will go on with my life.
I am grateful for the job that I have found... I am looking forward to getting back to Atlanta. Two weeks on the road is a long time. I am just about over it... and after everything I need to return here for another week.
Just a quick update.