Just a note on break - probably moving! (Exciting yet afraid)
I am so nauseated. I need sustinance. Can't leave work though, maybe after my friend stops by with the cash that she owes me then I can order a pizza or something. I am so tired.
I felt like crap yesterday, had a horrible migraine. Amanda came by to tell me that Josh hadn't been paying on the loans. That was just great. Called him today, and hopefully got that mess straightened out. Amanda visited for a while, and that was nice. Never really get to talk to her as much as I would like to. Didn't really feel like company though because my head was hurting so bad. Maybe it was the weather change and my arthritus, not sure, but it sucked. Slept most of the day, the night before, and last night, and partly this morning. Still kind of hurts. Couldn't sleep it away.
Then Moma stopped by, again glad to see her because we don't ever have enough time to talk, but didn't really feel like company. She just wanted to make sure that Ra'chelle hadn't been missing too much school, and to see if I would change her back to Central.
Then after all of that, me and Cory talked for a while. We have decided to move to Jackson, Tn after the first of the year. I really need to stand on my own two feet for once in my life. Not have someone to run to, only have my own resources to get me through. It will be hard, but standing and keeping yourself and your family taken care of on your own, it is important to me. Jackson was the top choice because it will be easy for me to find another job, schools are good, and Cory can get back into his "ninja" training. They have the best school there that he is determined to go to. I just hope I don't get there and end up having to move right back after falling on my face.
There will be plenty of I told you so's. No one is going to like our decsion to move. But I want a life of our own. A chance to make it in this world. Maybe I can find what I am looking for there. Maybe not. But I can't spend the rest of my life afraid of leaving this one horse town.
Well, I will write more later. Break is over now. Gotta eat so I gotta work. Later.
I felt like crap yesterday, had a horrible migraine. Amanda came by to tell me that Josh hadn't been paying on the loans. That was just great. Called him today, and hopefully got that mess straightened out. Amanda visited for a while, and that was nice. Never really get to talk to her as much as I would like to. Didn't really feel like company though because my head was hurting so bad. Maybe it was the weather change and my arthritus, not sure, but it sucked. Slept most of the day, the night before, and last night, and partly this morning. Still kind of hurts. Couldn't sleep it away.
Then Moma stopped by, again glad to see her because we don't ever have enough time to talk, but didn't really feel like company. She just wanted to make sure that Ra'chelle hadn't been missing too much school, and to see if I would change her back to Central.
Then after all of that, me and Cory talked for a while. We have decided to move to Jackson, Tn after the first of the year. I really need to stand on my own two feet for once in my life. Not have someone to run to, only have my own resources to get me through. It will be hard, but standing and keeping yourself and your family taken care of on your own, it is important to me. Jackson was the top choice because it will be easy for me to find another job, schools are good, and Cory can get back into his "ninja" training. They have the best school there that he is determined to go to. I just hope I don't get there and end up having to move right back after falling on my face.
There will be plenty of I told you so's. No one is going to like our decsion to move. But I want a life of our own. A chance to make it in this world. Maybe I can find what I am looking for there. Maybe not. But I can't spend the rest of my life afraid of leaving this one horse town.
Well, I will write more later. Break is over now. Gotta eat so I gotta work. Later.