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[southaznchik]

I don’t really know what to say. Last year...it was you and me against the whole world...now its just me against the world. Seriously the only thing holding us together is school. What’s going to happen after we graduate? You write about things that don’t really need to be brought back into your life anymore, especially right now, dont you see that you already have enough to deal with right now why bring it back again? its over and done with. You dont tell me how you're feeling anymore, you just write it in you lj and let me read it along with the rest of the world. You don’t answer when i call. It wasnt like that before it was different. Is it not right to talk to him about you? To ask him about you? What is it? I’m beginning to think now that you have him you obviously dont need me anymore, you and him both obviously dont need anyone at all anymore but each other. I had always put my friendship with you first before my relationship. Do you have any idea how much both of you lost? How much shit people talk about you two? the stuff you guys do in front of other people? do you even care? do you even notice? you've changed so much, you both have changed. I know i have changed too and ill admit it. I hold out a hand to try and help but its just hanging out there with nothing to hold to. or am i just blind? I do miss you, a lot. I dont want to lose you again. We almost lost each other once before, is it going to happen again? I dont know what to do, this is too much.

Funny thing...I dont think i'm mad...might be because its already 2 in the morning? on a tuesday? I think i might skip first again.

I need the sun back. It seems like thats the only thing that makes me happy now.

I can hear country music playing from the room next to me.

Happy Birthday Amy (today) and Meredith (yesterday-sorry).