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i am completely and utterly depressed. i have a billion friends and i feel alone. i have the biggest feeling of emptiness and pain and everything in my stomach. i'm only 21 and i feel like this. this is when i'm supposed to be having fun. i can't have fun. i fake happiness so much. every laugh. every smile. i don't wanna be depressed and an angry person, but that's what i am. no one wants me. even the clingest dumbest guy doesn't want me. i'm so use to getting rejected, it's not funny. ya know what? i have facebook and twitter sent to my phone so i can feel like someone wants to talk to me. otherwise, my phone barely goes off. my friends barely talk to me anymore. i hate it. i'm supposedly the best friend everyone has blah blah blah, yet everyone only wants me when they're in trouble or have a problem. i just can't do this anymore.