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I feel so bad for going there. Ya I did think about going to this other friendlys but I didn't know where it was, what I mean is I didn't know how to get there. I will it, I actually forgot he was even there. I just went on, had a great time with Tina and behaved towards him as any other worker. I never thought of him as my bf at that time so I could just enjoy my time and food. I will admit I lost my appitite when I saw him bc I knew he would be furious then I just let it go bc we're on a break. And it didn' matter. For as I was concerned he really was just another guy, a cute guy I might add.
I have been thinking about the relationship but I still havn't thought about the decision! I am still so lost! However I have realized that if one person wants out and the other doesn't then they should break up bc it's not fair to keep sum1 in a relationship if they dont want to b in one. So basically what I'm saying is, if one of us' decision is to move on then we are to move on. The only way we are staying togther is if both of us have that decision in their head. You cannot trap a guy or girl bc it will fail.
I feel better about the strip joint thingy. I have zero policy over that. I mean it would hurt anyone if they saw their gf or bf check out another person or well get purposly arosed by another person. To me it's a slap in the face.
Every couple has their does and don'ts for THEIR relationship based on insecurites, themselves and their personalities. One should never compare their guidelines to another, it's unjustice comparision.
I dont know what I have learned from this break. I have looked back and saw all went right and wrong and why. I was able to be an outside observer which I needed badly. Now I don't know about the decision. I hope the break doesn't have to extend but it might. Let's take it day by day.
Also I might go to sunday swing dance at mystic. IDK.
I have been thinking about the relationship but I still havn't thought about the decision! I am still so lost! However I have realized that if one person wants out and the other doesn't then they should break up bc it's not fair to keep sum1 in a relationship if they dont want to b in one. So basically what I'm saying is, if one of us' decision is to move on then we are to move on. The only way we are staying togther is if both of us have that decision in their head. You cannot trap a guy or girl bc it will fail.
I feel better about the strip joint thingy. I have zero policy over that. I mean it would hurt anyone if they saw their gf or bf check out another person or well get purposly arosed by another person. To me it's a slap in the face.
Every couple has their does and don'ts for THEIR relationship based on insecurites, themselves and their personalities. One should never compare their guidelines to another, it's unjustice comparision.
I dont know what I have learned from this break. I have looked back and saw all went right and wrong and why. I was able to be an outside observer which I needed badly. Now I don't know about the decision. I hope the break doesn't have to extend but it might. Let's take it day by day.
Also I might go to sunday swing dance at mystic. IDK.