- turtle, turtle -
today....was mighty stupid. i suck at life. i had homework in EVERY single class yesterday, and i didn't get to finish it, ugh. i dont understand physics AT ALL. i probably failed my history test cuz yakel told me before lunch that she was moving it to tomorrow, so i didn't finish studying like i was planning to, and then just before class, shes like "oh, allie, we're gonna have the quiz". so that was real cool too.
after school, nick, rachel and i chilled at blazin' bagels for a couple hours and then looked at hot boys in magazines at CVS, so that cheered me up a little. i think the owner of blazin bagels thinks we're really weird cuz we talk abt...weird things, lol
anyway...i should be doing hmwk now, but i'm freaked out abt what my teachers are gonna say abt how stupid i am, so i'm gonna procrastinate...
What is your name?: Alexandra
Are you named after anyone?: nope
What's your screename?: rosesbleedtears
Would you name a child of yours after you?: noooooo, thats so boring
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: if i were a boy, my name would have been Hans....thank god im a girl If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: i dunno... Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: no one can say -- let alone spell -- my last name, and they always spell my middle name stephanie instead of stefanie, and they always spell my conformation name theresa instead of theresia...i guess my name is too german for americans to spell, lol.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: no, thats weird.
Basics
Your gender:: female
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight
Single?: what else
If not, do you want to be?: Birthdate:: May 29th 87
Your age:: 16
Age you act:: i dunno...younger probably
Age you wish you were:: 18 so i could vote and bush could get up out, but then i wouldn't wanna get any older than that
Your height:: 5'7.
Eye color:: Brown
Happy with it?: no, i wish they were green like my dad's.
Hair color:: brown w/ highlights
Happy with it?: dont care....
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: righty but kind of ambidextrous.
Your living arrangement:: mom, dad, hamster, rabbits that live under my deck and eat our garden
Your family:: mom, dad, brother, billions of aunts and uncles on my moms side and not so many on my dad's Have any pets?: one...i'm not allowed to have anyhting bigger than a hamster, or i'd have a dog and a cat
Whats your job?: don't have one...unless u call babysitting a job, but i only do that once in a while.
Piercings?: 2 in each ear..i want more
Tattoos?: not yet
Obsessions?: adam brody, ian somerhalder, and generally hot boys with sweet hair
Addictions?: gum.
Do you speak another language?: German...and Finnish, lol, and then theres the lil bit of greek that i know and the spanish that i try to know and the small bit of french that i rememeber from a long itme ago, lol
Have a favorite quote?: cant think of any
Do you have a webpage?: yeah, its not done yet tho...i kind of stopped working on it
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: uh
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: no.
Do you have any secrets?: ya, probably...
Do you hate yourself?: kind of.
Do you like your handwriting?: its fine, i dont mind it
Do you have any bad habits?: i break off my split ends when im bored, lol
What is the compliment you get from most people?: no one compliments me...ever
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Germanglish
What's your biggest fear?: not getting into college and being alone forever
Can you sing?: sometimes..i guess
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: lol, no.
Are you a loner?: i dont think so...i dunno, am i?.
What are your #1 priorities in life?: to succeed
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: i think i would...but maybe im really annoying and i just dont see it cuz a lot of people dont like me and i dont know why
Are you a daredevil?: not really.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: yeah.
Are you passive or agressive?: depends on the situation...
Do you have a journal?: this right herre
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: strength...i dunno. weakness...being too shy
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: mucho .
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: sometimes.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: no.
Do you think life has been good so far?: no.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: no matter how hard u try, it's never good enough.
What do you like the most about your body?: nothing.
And least?: my grossly HUGE hands and feet.
Do you think you are good looking?: obviously im not....
Are you confident?: sometimes.
What is the fictional character you are most like?: i dunno.
Are you perceived wrongly?: yeah... sometimes.
Do You...
Smoke?: no.
Do drugs?: not so far...
Read the newspaper?: not really.
Pray?: not really
Go to church?: haven't been in a REALLY long time
Talk to strangers who IM you?: when i'm really bored, i mess with them
Sleep with stuffed animals?: Yea
Take walks in the rain?: when its warm and i have an umbrella.
Talk to people even though you hate them?: i don't hate anyone.
Drive?: Legally? yes & yes
Like to drive fast?: lol, ya Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: i dont care abt it
Hurt yourself?: Yes
Been out of the country?: Yes
Eaten something that made other people sick?: ? ew, no...
Been in love?: nope
Done drugs?: nope Gone skinny dipping?: no Had a medical emergency?: no
Had surgery?: ya
Ran away from home?: kinda, but not really
Played strip poker?: nope
Gotten beaten up?: no.
Beaten someone up?: no
Been picked on?: all the time...i'm like the laughing stock
Been on stage?: of course.
Slept outdoors?: yup yup!
Thought about suicide?: yes
Pulled an all nighter?: yea
If yes, what is your record?: all night... ?
Gone one day without food?: ya
Talked on the phone all night?: yeah.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: Yeah...
Slept all day?: once
Killed someone?: no
Made out with a stranger?: no
Had sex with a stranger?: No
Thought you're going crazy?: Yeah
Kissed the same sex?: on the cheek....cuz we're friends...
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
Been betrayed?: yea
Had a dream that came true?: yea
Broken the law?: Yeah
Met a famous person?: Yeah
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: ants...thats about it
On purpose?: mosquitos, lol
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: no, im really good at keeping secrets
Stolen anything?: nope
Been on radio/tv?: yep
Been in a mosh-pit?: yep
Had a nervous breakdown?: a lot.
Bungee jumped?: nah
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yeah
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: Yes
Miracles?: yes
Astrology?: Yes
Magic?: Yeah.
God?: yeah
Satan?: kinda Santa?: no
Ghosts?: spirits
Luck?: yes kinda
Love at first sight?: no
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:yes
Witches?: Yeah
Easter bunny?: no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yeah
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: umm, lol Do you wish on stars?: used to
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: Kind of
Do you think God has a gender?: no and then there are the other ones i believe in that do
Do you believe in organized religion?: Yeah, but i dont believe in just 1
Where do you think we go when we die?: heaven, and then reincarnation
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Yes
Who is your best friend?: dont have one
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: dunno...i dont think theres anyone that i tell absolutely EVERYTHING to
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: i dunno
Your favourite inside joke?: there are alot Thing you're picked on most about?: i dunno.
Who's your longest known friend?: caro, lindey and rachel....i've known them all forever, pretty much Newest?: all the ppl i met when i transferred
Shyest?: sarah
Funniest?: all of them
Sweetest?: a couple of them
Closest?: caro maybe
Weirdest?: i dunno.
Smartest?: all my friends are smarter than me.
Ditziest?: i dont have ditzy friends...
Friends you miss being close to the most?: caro, linds
Last person you talked to online?: Sarah
Who do you talk to most online?: depends whos on
Who are you on the phone with most?: dont really talk that much on the phone cuz no one calls me Who do you trust most?: i dunno
Who listens to your problems?: all my friends hear me bitch every once in a while.
Who do you fight most with?: rachel
Who's the nicest?: most of em Who's the most outgoing?: i dunno
Who's the best singer?: um, a couple of em are really good.
Who's on your shit-list?: my shit list consists mostly of teachers
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: no..
Who's your second family?: caro's...the thielenhaus's. or rachel's, but they're already my family, lol
Do you always feel understood?: Never Who's the loudest friend?: rachel
Do you trust others easily?: i dunno. depends
Who's house were you last at?: one i was actually inside? nick's.
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: i'm never in anyone's arms.
Do your friends know you?: i hope so.
Friend that lives farthest away:: kathrin in china, even though she doesn' t like me anymore.
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: no...
What do you find romantic?: ugh.
Turn-on?: hot hair.
Turn-off?: ugly hair, lol
First kiss?: non-existant, thanks, bye.
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: i dunno, that'll never happen.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: yesh. hah who wouldn't?
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: no, cuz im too shy to ask ppl out anyway
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv: um...i never really knew boys until this year, so.....
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: obviously not.
What is best about the opposite sex?: hmm good question.
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: good question.
What's the last present someone gave you?: no idea.
Are you in love?: yeah right.
Do you consider your significant other hot?: i'm sure if i had one that'd be the case.
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: what...
You wanted to kill?: a certain teacher.
That you laughed at?: nick and i laughed at rachel's lil magazine freak out, lol
That laughed at you?: dunno.
That turned you on?: a picture of jake gyllenhal, lol
You went shopping with?: sarah
That broke your heart?: life
To disappoint you?: life To ask you out?: no one's ever asked me out...thanks To make you cry?: life To brighten up your day?: amanda :)
That you thought about?: lol You saw a movie with?: i went to the movies with sarah...i rented a movie and watched it with rachel... You talked to on the phone?: my mom
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: sarah
You saw?: nick and rachel
You lost?: dunno Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: no
Will it be with your significant other?: dont have one...
Or some random person?: im not tho...lol
What are you wearing right now?: a old blue abercrombie hoodie that i rediscovered, lol, and jeans
Body part you're touching right now:: ... What are you worried about right now?: school.
What book are you reading?: the iliad
What's on your mousepad?: diddl and diddlina playing with blocks
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: tired, loney, bored, sick, cold
Are you bored?: ya.
Are you tired?: hella yea
Are you talking to anyone online?: i was, but this is the third time u asked me this u forgetful freak...
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: No.
Are you lonely or content?: lonely, but im used to it
Are you listening to music?: no, the tv's on behind me..but im not really listening to it