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Well haven't written in here for a loooong time but Stella talked me into it. Yeah so.. I'm just confused as hell right now... confused confused confusion... I met this kid and he's really cool and really really -hott- and so I started talking to him online and such.. blah blah blah.. the story continues...
So like one day I asked him what his frist impression of me was and he said "i thought you were cool and actually had a sense of humor and I think your'e really cute." Oh, my god, when he typed that I thought I would float away and never come down!! But then it wore off, and I was like... ok yeah.. that meant absolutley nothing!!! But, being the social retard that I am, no one (a guy) ((besides my cousin Cody)) has ever said something like that to me.
So I kept talking to him and every time I do, I just feel like we "click" and like I may actually have a chance for once. But then I realized, come on, get a grip. Why would he ever go for me?!!!?!?!?! I've never had a boyfriend, never been kissed, so why should this be any different?
I hate feeling like I have no chance, but what I hate more is feeling like I do have a chance, and realizing that I'm seriously mistaken. All my fantasies and hopes come crashing down on me and the I feel like shit.
To make matters worse, the girl who introduced me and this guy is one of my really good friends, and she likes him too. So then when I told her that I like him she was okay with it and stuff and she said she'd be happy if we got together and such, but then she does these little stupid things to make me jealous and it drives me insane. I'm half ready to give up, but then my friend told me "you've liked this guy & known him for a week" ((yes I know, a week is very short, but what can I do about it)). The guy I liked previous to this I liked for 4 YEARS before I gave up. So I'll stay with it a bit longer and see how it goes. I really really want this one to be the one that I finally get.
My cousin Cody is being really really cool about this... he's like helping me and telling me that I'm gonna get him and stuff, and today he actually called me and yelled at me because I was pissing him off with my bitching about how I have no chance.. Gotta love it..
Ok well anyway I guess that's it, I just had a hankerin' to vent a bit.. All of this seems so dumb in writing, but what am I gonna do about it?
.:kim:.
So like one day I asked him what his frist impression of me was and he said "i thought you were cool and actually had a sense of humor and I think your'e really cute." Oh, my god, when he typed that I thought I would float away and never come down!! But then it wore off, and I was like... ok yeah.. that meant absolutley nothing!!! But, being the social retard that I am, no one (a guy) ((besides my cousin Cody)) has ever said something like that to me.
So I kept talking to him and every time I do, I just feel like we "click" and like I may actually have a chance for once. But then I realized, come on, get a grip. Why would he ever go for me?!!!?!?!?! I've never had a boyfriend, never been kissed, so why should this be any different?
I hate feeling like I have no chance, but what I hate more is feeling like I do have a chance, and realizing that I'm seriously mistaken. All my fantasies and hopes come crashing down on me and the I feel like shit.
To make matters worse, the girl who introduced me and this guy is one of my really good friends, and she likes him too. So then when I told her that I like him she was okay with it and stuff and she said she'd be happy if we got together and such, but then she does these little stupid things to make me jealous and it drives me insane. I'm half ready to give up, but then my friend told me "you've liked this guy & known him for a week" ((yes I know, a week is very short, but what can I do about it)). The guy I liked previous to this I liked for 4 YEARS before I gave up. So I'll stay with it a bit longer and see how it goes. I really really want this one to be the one that I finally get.
My cousin Cody is being really really cool about this... he's like helping me and telling me that I'm gonna get him and stuff, and today he actually called me and yelled at me because I was pissing him off with my bitching about how I have no chance.. Gotta love it..
Ok well anyway I guess that's it, I just had a hankerin' to vent a bit.. All of this seems so dumb in writing, but what am I gonna do about it?
.:kim:.