Amazing
Last night was the best night i have had in such a long time...if ever. Ben came to see me again. we've been dating for roughly a month. things with him have been nothing short of miraculous. but last night...omg last night...i fell really hard for him.
He drove from bradenton last night and got here at 10pm. i got as pretty as i could for him :) He told me before he got here that he had a gift for me and i had to find a nice place with a view for us to go to. so i choose to go to pineapple park on the indian river. well to skip the down time and get right to the gift...he gave me the greatest gift he could...music. he made me the most wonderful cd. every song has a deep meaning for him and now for me too because he shared it with me. there are songs i hadn't heard before i met him on there that are beautiful and he knew i liked them, and there are songs that represent things about me. for example one song that touched my heart was mariah carey's hero. he said that he put that song on there because i am going through some tough times and i often say i can't do it. i wanted to just cry (and almost did a few times). some of the other songs he put on there were lady in red (because he loves my red hair), a song i don't know the name of but a guy sings about being apart from the person he loves and ben said that was how he felt when he went back to bradenton, and he had a bunch of just sweet songs like once, twice, three times a lady, and you are so beautiful to me. but the last song he put on the cd almost made me lose it right there in the car. i fought back tears the first time we listened to it...just thinking that he intentionally put this song on the cd, he really felt it. the second time we listened through the cd and got to this song he sang it to me...that took every ounce of self control i had not to just ball like a baby! the last song on the cd is elvis presley singing I can't help falling in love with you. :')
everytime ben and i are together is so meaningful. it's so intense. and most of the time we aren't doing much but just enjoying each other's company. the only actual go out date we had was to universal city walk once, all the rest have been just the two of us, one on one, somewhere alone. ben really means so much to me...especially after last night. i mean i have had the same kind of feelings for him for a while now, but last night really brought us closer because i realized, and i think he realized the same about me, that he feels the same way i do. i don't have to fear how he really feels about me or unrequited love or anything like that.
He's just amazing and i'll leave it at that :)
He drove from bradenton last night and got here at 10pm. i got as pretty as i could for him :) He told me before he got here that he had a gift for me and i had to find a nice place with a view for us to go to. so i choose to go to pineapple park on the indian river. well to skip the down time and get right to the gift...he gave me the greatest gift he could...music. he made me the most wonderful cd. every song has a deep meaning for him and now for me too because he shared it with me. there are songs i hadn't heard before i met him on there that are beautiful and he knew i liked them, and there are songs that represent things about me. for example one song that touched my heart was mariah carey's hero. he said that he put that song on there because i am going through some tough times and i often say i can't do it. i wanted to just cry (and almost did a few times). some of the other songs he put on there were lady in red (because he loves my red hair), a song i don't know the name of but a guy sings about being apart from the person he loves and ben said that was how he felt when he went back to bradenton, and he had a bunch of just sweet songs like once, twice, three times a lady, and you are so beautiful to me. but the last song he put on the cd almost made me lose it right there in the car. i fought back tears the first time we listened to it...just thinking that he intentionally put this song on the cd, he really felt it. the second time we listened through the cd and got to this song he sang it to me...that took every ounce of self control i had not to just ball like a baby! the last song on the cd is elvis presley singing I can't help falling in love with you. :')
everytime ben and i are together is so meaningful. it's so intense. and most of the time we aren't doing much but just enjoying each other's company. the only actual go out date we had was to universal city walk once, all the rest have been just the two of us, one on one, somewhere alone. ben really means so much to me...especially after last night. i mean i have had the same kind of feelings for him for a while now, but last night really brought us closer because i realized, and i think he realized the same about me, that he feels the same way i do. i don't have to fear how he really feels about me or unrequited love or anything like that.
He's just amazing and i'll leave it at that :)