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[sourboi]

not that i'm homesick or anything, but i'm really excited to get back to toronto and pick things up where they left off. i'm enjoying everything here (although the weather is getting A LOT colder than i expected), but i really want to get myself settled with jeffrey and finish up my degree. i'm pretty set on what i am going to be doing for my final thesis project next year, but i can't really start working on it until i get home. and i miss my friends. i feel like because i'm only here for 6 months i sort of decided that i was going to purposely make NO friends. why bother when i'm not going to talk with them again, EVER. i have a hard enough time keeping contact with my really good friends. god, i can't wait until i can have my welcome home tim hortons party! school is getting on my nerves. i'm having so many problems with my photography class. the problem is that i'm in "photography 3", which obviously means that regular students need to have taken 1 & 2 before this. although i do feel that out of all 4 photo classes i fit most well in this one, in regards to whatever photo training i have, but i think there was a lot of stuff in photo 2 that students learned (flash, light reading, and learning about certain cameras that we use) that are helping them in this class. i don't know if i'm feeling more insecure with my work because i'm concerned with being the "dumb canadian exchange student", or if i actually am behind compared to the others... i guess what i'm mainly pissed with is that I JUST SPENT OVER 100 DOLLARS ON AN ASSIGNMENT THAT WAS ALL DONE WRONG. and i still don't have a job. jefffrey is going to be coming home a month before me and i don't know what i'm going to do for 30 days by myself. i guess i could use that time to work hard on all my final assignments, but my work load is pretty light (ALTHOUGH STRESSFUL) and i'm usually bored out of my mind clicking all over the internet.

my hair is getting whiter as each day passes. like 30% / 70%
i've been permanently deleting all photos of me where i can see the beginnings of a receding hairline.
I'M ONLY 20.