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Breaking up is hard to do. I hate hurting people. I've said it before and I shall say it again: whoever says they'd rather be the dumper to keep their dignity is heartless/way too into themselves. I'd almost rather avoid relationships altogether because I hate the end. It sucks because I've never fought with any of my boyfriends (minus once or twice with Jake), so basically out of the blue I'm like, 'oh, by the way. We need to break up'. It's sooo hard.
And it's sad because it's never the guy; it's me with a weird complex. Right now I am way too free-spirited/independant/spontaneous to be in a relationship. I find myself hating the expected roles you're supposed to play, and how relationships have sort-of rules, like see each other this much, talk on the phone for an hour every night, etc. I hate living up to a standard.
Plus, I'm off to college in a month! If it's hard for me now to deal with it, there's NO WAY I could in college. I wanna have fun and be free and not have to worry about the trials and tribulations that come along with a long-distance (even tho it's only 45 minutes) relationship my first semester in college. Perhaps later. But I couldn't deal with it now. And I don't want to.
I'm never gonna get married. I'm gonna be like Angelina Jolie and adopt my kids from Cambodia. I'm going to be dog woman: think cat lady but only with dogs.
And it's sad because it's never the guy; it's me with a weird complex. Right now I am way too free-spirited/independant/spontaneous to be in a relationship. I find myself hating the expected roles you're supposed to play, and how relationships have sort-of rules, like see each other this much, talk on the phone for an hour every night, etc. I hate living up to a standard.
Plus, I'm off to college in a month! If it's hard for me now to deal with it, there's NO WAY I could in college. I wanna have fun and be free and not have to worry about the trials and tribulations that come along with a long-distance (even tho it's only 45 minutes) relationship my first semester in college. Perhaps later. But I couldn't deal with it now. And I don't want to.
I'm never gonna get married. I'm gonna be like Angelina Jolie and adopt my kids from Cambodia. I'm going to be dog woman: think cat lady but only with dogs.