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My life snuck up on me. I haven't done anything in life, really. I haven't traveled really, I barely make any money. I have no set dreams, except that I just want SOMETHING to change. I want to finish school but for what? To waste more time.
Today I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, and I'm having days like this more and more. I just wish I didn't feel like I was suffocating. I wish I was still 18, and I could do things over again. I don't know what I would have done, but maybe it would have led to a better outcome. But why live in the past, I'm 24 years old and I'm not getting any younger. Today I have no energy to be too optimistic so I'm taking it one day at a time, starting with today. What should I do today... hmmm...
I really want to kick Matt out of my life. I mean he'll leave anyway. It's not fair, I reckon, considering it's not his fault. He hasn't DONE Anything, which I guess is what aggravates me most. Just going on like nothing is wrong, it's insulting. I'm just bitching.
And Jordan is bitching. and some guy at the gas station made me feel like a bad mom the other day, dick hole.
I wish I could just run away.
Today I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, and I'm having days like this more and more. I just wish I didn't feel like I was suffocating. I wish I was still 18, and I could do things over again. I don't know what I would have done, but maybe it would have led to a better outcome. But why live in the past, I'm 24 years old and I'm not getting any younger. Today I have no energy to be too optimistic so I'm taking it one day at a time, starting with today. What should I do today... hmmm...
I really want to kick Matt out of my life. I mean he'll leave anyway. It's not fair, I reckon, considering it's not his fault. He hasn't DONE Anything, which I guess is what aggravates me most. Just going on like nothing is wrong, it's insulting. I'm just bitching.
And Jordan is bitching. and some guy at the gas station made me feel like a bad mom the other day, dick hole.
I wish I could just run away.