that bastard.
Every day I become more and more of a mess. I woke up this morning with yesterdays eye liner streaming down my face. I looked like a clown, I guess I cried in my sleep? And I thought of what I dreamed about. I dreamed that I was a princess and a prince was locked in a castle somewhere and I got him out but he didn't' want to marry me. I slayed the dragon, scaled the mountain, ALL THAT, and he didn't want to marry me. I know that sounds stupid.
so I'm sitting here thinking of how I can be a different person. What I can do with my hair, what I can wear. Sometimes I think I'm so awesome and sometimes I think I could be somebody different all together.
Right now I'm about half-way awesome, and I need to be fully awesome for the double I have to pull tonight. If I don't go to work thinking I'm the shit it usually isn't a very good night.
This weekend is Mardi Gras, I forgot. I want to go so bad. I just want to get away. My life is so dull. Work, take care of Jordan, wallow in my own self-pity. It's getting to me, I need to get out and away and really have some fun. I don't know what I want/need really.
I got my tooth pulled yesterday. FINALLY! It didn't hurt I guess. He did it so quick and I was caught off guard. But I'm glad he did it that way. so that is over with. The pain meds have had me so sleepy lately.
I hate Valentines Day this year. I can't complain, the last 3 years I've been in a relationship and I'm happy I'm not anymore. Not in that one anyway.
Well, tomorrow we should own a car! Yayyyy. I know I should be more excited about this lol. I am, I guess. I'm just in a blah mood right now. MY dreams had me pissed off before my reality ever had a chance.
so I'm sitting here thinking of how I can be a different person. What I can do with my hair, what I can wear. Sometimes I think I'm so awesome and sometimes I think I could be somebody different all together.
Right now I'm about half-way awesome, and I need to be fully awesome for the double I have to pull tonight. If I don't go to work thinking I'm the shit it usually isn't a very good night.
This weekend is Mardi Gras, I forgot. I want to go so bad. I just want to get away. My life is so dull. Work, take care of Jordan, wallow in my own self-pity. It's getting to me, I need to get out and away and really have some fun. I don't know what I want/need really.
I got my tooth pulled yesterday. FINALLY! It didn't hurt I guess. He did it so quick and I was caught off guard. But I'm glad he did it that way. so that is over with. The pain meds have had me so sleepy lately.
I hate Valentines Day this year. I can't complain, the last 3 years I've been in a relationship and I'm happy I'm not anymore. Not in that one anyway.
Well, tomorrow we should own a car! Yayyyy. I know I should be more excited about this lol. I am, I guess. I'm just in a blah mood right now. MY dreams had me pissed off before my reality ever had a chance.