bye bye baby
I am so bummed out. Travis moved out today. Well he took most of his clothes and went with Jordan to his parents. I had to work from 4pm to 3am so I wasn't really here to see him go. I told him before I left for work that he had to get out. I just couldn't take it anymore. The fighting, it's not good for us to do that in front of Jordan. The thing I hate though is that I look like the bad guy. Travis is a good guy, but when we fight he provokes me. We say some mean shit to one another and we've gotten physical. It's gotten both of us in to trouble, but everybody probably thinks I'm just some mean bitch. After 4 years I am just so emotionally beaten down that I don't even like Travis half the time. I care about him and stuff, but I just need him out of my sight for a while.
Now I'm alone and depressed. Nothing ever works out. Where is the life I want? What Kind of life do I want?
I went to the dentist Wednesday and I have an abscess and infection in my tooth and I'm finally getting it pulled next Wednesday. I'm scared and in heaps of pain but the pain killers are working for the most part.
I don't know what to do. Just waiting on tax money so I can buy a car finally. Then I'll go from there I guess. I hope I wake up tomorrow in a better mood. I hate being depressed.
Now I'm alone and depressed. Nothing ever works out. Where is the life I want? What Kind of life do I want?
I went to the dentist Wednesday and I have an abscess and infection in my tooth and I'm finally getting it pulled next Wednesday. I'm scared and in heaps of pain but the pain killers are working for the most part.
I don't know what to do. Just waiting on tax money so I can buy a car finally. Then I'll go from there I guess. I hope I wake up tomorrow in a better mood. I hate being depressed.