I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
some of my friends are so fake and selfish that I just don't know what to do. I know it's not healthy for ME becasue i'm just not a very selfish showy person. I don't know what to do but it doesn't really matter anyway.
we'll all see.
today i woke up knowing that I probably wouldn't do anything and wouldn't go anywhere. but I thought i'd at least try and change it. i called dickie and we walked to Roses's. my alternative plan to walk to camper park or wal*mart was quickly squashed. i got my toothpaste, strawberry kiwi juice and jar of pickles and here we are. back at square one. at least now I have clothes on.
i just wish this feeling would go away. this feeling of utter indifference to anything and the feeling of insignifigance. That feeling of Where am I going? what do I do? I mean I don't need people subjecting me to thoughts like "If I don't move away from here I am one to be pitied" if you can't be happy where you are you'll never be happy. That's just a fact.
I am happy here, but I don't want to be here forever. I can't help it though. shit i'll have a car ONE day. I'm still a kid. Just a kid, in heart, soul and luckily age. Why rush what doesn't need to be rushed?
we'll all see.
today i woke up knowing that I probably wouldn't do anything and wouldn't go anywhere. but I thought i'd at least try and change it. i called dickie and we walked to Roses's. my alternative plan to walk to camper park or wal*mart was quickly squashed. i got my toothpaste, strawberry kiwi juice and jar of pickles and here we are. back at square one. at least now I have clothes on.
i just wish this feeling would go away. this feeling of utter indifference to anything and the feeling of insignifigance. That feeling of Where am I going? what do I do? I mean I don't need people subjecting me to thoughts like "If I don't move away from here I am one to be pitied" if you can't be happy where you are you'll never be happy. That's just a fact.
I am happy here, but I don't want to be here forever. I can't help it though. shit i'll have a car ONE day. I'm still a kid. Just a kid, in heart, soul and luckily age. Why rush what doesn't need to be rushed?