come on come on

[sour_jacks_ick]

Today was better I guess. I just sort of ignored everything that was bugging me. Casey and Mary were making me extra happy on the bus. Nora, Christa, and I were making shadows on the sidewalk. It was a lot of fun. But of course, there are still problems... Ignoring them probably won't get me very far. I think I realized a lot. Syd told me that I complained and that's maybe why "someone" doesn't talk to me anymore. But even though I might have annoyed the hell out of her sometimes, she always listened and tried to say the right things and help me through. Now that I think about it, I probably sound like I'm always complaining, but really, I just want someone to listen to me. Maybe I'm expecting too much of people, expecting them to say all the right things to make me happy again. I know what I want to hear. But everybody else doesn't know. I guess all I really want is somebody to listen to me, somebody to comfort me. Syd was that for me, but I don't have her anymore. I don't know. And I'm beginning to think that I make people uncomfortable or even more stressed out. I wish somebody would just listen to everything I have to say without giving their imput until everything is out in the open. But unfortunately when people are talking to me everybody says what they want when they want to.

You're telling me to tell the truth even with my mouth sewn up
come on
I'm telling to you see the truth even with your eyes sewn shut

<3 becca