you can't resist her...

[sour_jacks_ick]

Sorry if this entry makes anybody cry. If you're still overwhelmed with the whole Sydney thing (which I still am) then don't read this. My mom told me that her backpack was soaked in blood so they had to throw it away. My notebook with her was in there. I remember that I wrote the last note in there and making sure we were still cool and making sure we didn't have any problems. I never got to see what she wrote back. I never got to see if we were still cool or if some sort of problem developed. I really hope she still thought of me as a good friend, not a used to be good friend.
I'm going to her house today with her boyfriend. Hopefully I don't totally break down. This is so rough. This is the second person that I love that has died. Wow this is all too overwhelming.

I had a really bad day today. It seems to just be getting even worse. I need some uplifting really bad.

You can't resist her.
She's in your bones.
She is your marrow
And your ride home.

You can't avoid her.
She's in the air... in the air
In between molecules of
Oxygen and Carbon Dioxide.

[chorus]
Only in dreams
We see what it means.
Reach out our hands.
Hold onto hers.
But when we wake
It's all been erased.
And so it seems
Only in dreams.