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I`ve been forgetting so much stuff lately.
Maybe not forgetting, more not caring to listen when people tell me so I make mistakes.
Like yesterday, for the tournament Naho-san told me to bring my uniform. But I kind of half-listened and thought I just had to bring my jersey pants and jacket. But since the uniform I have at home had the ace number on it, we HAD to have it. My host mom ended up having to bring it.
Then today I forgot my school swimsuit for PE. And I forgot my PE uniform shirt too, so Satsuki told me to borrow hers. But by the time I got back from the classroom I was really late, and couldn`t open the door to the frickin` dressing room. So I said "fck this." and am skipping. I know Sora and Satsuki especially are going to bitch at me later, and I don`t want to deal with Sora because she annoys me.
I don`t -really- care.
I`m just so tired. For a month now I`ve been waking up at 4 am, sleeping at 1 am, so I can be at school by 5:30 (when the first train comes, which sucks.) to practice the dance for sports day, before and after school along with volleyball. Barely time to eat, and everyone was so exhausted. Finally we had the sports day, and our dance group won 1st. By that point I didn`t -really- care.
Then yesterday we had our big tournament. The second best vball team there and lost the 2nd game due to some dumb mistakes. We cried for over an hour, really really loud. Because losing that game meant starting tomorrow our sempais won`t be there anymore. We`ll have a new captain and sub-captain, new regulars, and now the 2nd years are stuck teaching the 1st years, and suddenly -we`re- the authority. no one`s ready. It`s going to be really, really lonely. I haven`t cried that hard in a long time.
Tomorrow is the meeting to decide the new captain, and to say good-bye. Everyone warns me to bring a towel because everyones going to start bawling again.
Maybe not forgetting, more not caring to listen when people tell me so I make mistakes.
Like yesterday, for the tournament Naho-san told me to bring my uniform. But I kind of half-listened and thought I just had to bring my jersey pants and jacket. But since the uniform I have at home had the ace number on it, we HAD to have it. My host mom ended up having to bring it.
Then today I forgot my school swimsuit for PE. And I forgot my PE uniform shirt too, so Satsuki told me to borrow hers. But by the time I got back from the classroom I was really late, and couldn`t open the door to the frickin` dressing room. So I said "fck this." and am skipping. I know Sora and Satsuki especially are going to bitch at me later, and I don`t want to deal with Sora because she annoys me.
I don`t -really- care.
I`m just so tired. For a month now I`ve been waking up at 4 am, sleeping at 1 am, so I can be at school by 5:30 (when the first train comes, which sucks.) to practice the dance for sports day, before and after school along with volleyball. Barely time to eat, and everyone was so exhausted. Finally we had the sports day, and our dance group won 1st. By that point I didn`t -really- care.
Then yesterday we had our big tournament. The second best vball team there and lost the 2nd game due to some dumb mistakes. We cried for over an hour, really really loud. Because losing that game meant starting tomorrow our sempais won`t be there anymore. We`ll have a new captain and sub-captain, new regulars, and now the 2nd years are stuck teaching the 1st years, and suddenly -we`re- the authority. no one`s ready. It`s going to be really, really lonely. I haven`t cried that hard in a long time.
Tomorrow is the meeting to decide the new captain, and to say good-bye. Everyone warns me to bring a towel because everyones going to start bawling again.