impossible
i hate this, how i have to pretend all the time . . how i have to fake it like i dont care, like i have nothing to say, like things have gotten better. how come it has to be like this? my feelings havent changed at all . . . i try so hard to make it go away, but i cant. i know everyone says that it goes away eventually, but i dont think it ever will . . somehow it will still be there, and whenever i see her, my heart will skip a beat and ill get nervous. . .
but i know your doing well, from all the stories you have, it seems like your moving on well. and it makes me . . .feel empty that you dont feel the same way. like i was the only one who was trying . . . i was just another one of those guys on your list. im not mad tho, i never have been, im still in love with you for some reason, and the only thing i can do is pretend im not and try to move on.
it hurts alot
i never knew i could be this pathetic, that i would ever cling on to someone this much. how i never "got the hint" that you werent interested . . . i guess i only have myself to blame, i set my self up for this.
i feel so expendible . . like i was just there to keep you company, like you could just throw me away and replace me with someone new in an instant. while to me, you were . . . everything
i just feel terrible right now, my friends are trying their best to make me feel better, and i thank them and love them fromt he bottom of my heart . . but theres alot of things that i have to heal on my own . . .
but i know your doing well, from all the stories you have, it seems like your moving on well. and it makes me . . .feel empty that you dont feel the same way. like i was the only one who was trying . . . i was just another one of those guys on your list. im not mad tho, i never have been, im still in love with you for some reason, and the only thing i can do is pretend im not and try to move on.
it hurts alot
i never knew i could be this pathetic, that i would ever cling on to someone this much. how i never "got the hint" that you werent interested . . . i guess i only have myself to blame, i set my self up for this.
i feel so expendible . . like i was just there to keep you company, like you could just throw me away and replace me with someone new in an instant. while to me, you were . . . everything
i just feel terrible right now, my friends are trying their best to make me feel better, and i thank them and love them fromt he bottom of my heart . . but theres alot of things that i have to heal on my own . . .