Wish it were next month
I so know how you feel Trish about this month being the worst. Everything bad has happened this month..But to be honest I think I've always been "the nerd", so it doesn't bother me that much.
It started out, Andrew harrasses me from like day one of the month until around the tenth..just so happens september 7th was my dad's 5 year death anniversary, so the one person who is usually there to comfort me is there, but definetly not comforting me. I had realized on September 6th that the next day was "that day", but when I woke up on the 7th it didn't occur to me until later in the day..I had all those little things that just make your day shit (including) stepping in dog shit right before you walk out the door so you have to go change shoes. That day was terrible. And since there has just been nothing but a bunch of shit going on. My mom and jerry, good god let me tell you. I think this was the craziest I've ever seen them fight. I don't even really want to go into it. I have a crush on this guy and I had his number on my hand..Andrew seen it and he's been badgering me ever since. What the fuck..when you are broke up..aren't you allowed to atleast have a crush. The truth is, with Andrew and I, it will never actually be over or dead, just uncertain. I don't want to make him unhappy or myself. You know. But it's not just me, he has part in it equally so, don't think I'm taking all the blame for our problems. I just want to start over with everything I know now about my faults and how to work through them. Plus, I know not to ever get with a musician again. But Andrew and I will hopefully always be friends.
Anyways, the new month is coming soon..and the greatest way I can think of starting it is by going to a meeting.
My neck hurts..my headaches coming back too.Not to mention my acid reflux have been killing me, for noapparent reason. Whah..
((crybaby))
Gotta love us picses
It started out, Andrew harrasses me from like day one of the month until around the tenth..just so happens september 7th was my dad's 5 year death anniversary, so the one person who is usually there to comfort me is there, but definetly not comforting me. I had realized on September 6th that the next day was "that day", but when I woke up on the 7th it didn't occur to me until later in the day..I had all those little things that just make your day shit (including) stepping in dog shit right before you walk out the door so you have to go change shoes. That day was terrible. And since there has just been nothing but a bunch of shit going on. My mom and jerry, good god let me tell you. I think this was the craziest I've ever seen them fight. I don't even really want to go into it. I have a crush on this guy and I had his number on my hand..Andrew seen it and he's been badgering me ever since. What the fuck..when you are broke up..aren't you allowed to atleast have a crush. The truth is, with Andrew and I, it will never actually be over or dead, just uncertain. I don't want to make him unhappy or myself. You know. But it's not just me, he has part in it equally so, don't think I'm taking all the blame for our problems. I just want to start over with everything I know now about my faults and how to work through them. Plus, I know not to ever get with a musician again. But Andrew and I will hopefully always be friends.
Anyways, the new month is coming soon..and the greatest way I can think of starting it is by going to a meeting.
My neck hurts..my headaches coming back too.Not to mention my acid reflux have been killing me, for noapparent reason. Whah..
((crybaby))
Gotta love us picses